xmas!!!!

yay!!! arent you people so happy that xmas is here??? i kno i am. haha. sad though that so far i only have received two presents.. =( cant wait to receive the rest. lolz.

i am so tired too. out the whole day yesterday. going out again later to my aunty's house. and i slept at 2 something bcuz... i was talking to zachary. lol. we were so random wei. we talked abt alcohol, and xmas party and i cant remember wat else. best part was, he was also msgin my sister who was like next to me the entire time! hahax..

i cant wait for xmas jym party 2moro!!! yay!!! my two best friends are involved. haha. it'll be super super fun. i hope my brother dont mind being my driver and sending me to church.. haha.

well... thats all for now i guess. merry xmas to all and god bless always!

xoxo... XP

rally and life after exams.

so.. i cannot be any happier since exams are over. and rally was a blast!!! like... F-U-Y-O-H!!! haha. i'm so happy for this years rally team. they did a really fantastic job. i love the blacklight. it was really cool. and the games. i really no voice ady and i was still running aroung cheering for my team. weird since i was not supposed to be on their side..

i met a lot of first comers this year. and they're all really fun to be with. and dancing with the lord is really really really fun!!! i bet all the girls got their dancing shoes out and had a blasted time dancing their hearts out.

life after exam... well since xmas is just around the corner... i hope to get lots of presents!!! and not forgetting, giving too. xmas party is coming up and i cant wait to see what is in store by this years team. yay!!! lol.

oh ya. i went out to pyramid with dev and the 09 team on thursday. it was fun. i finally learnt how to skate. still unstable but its better than nothing. on friday i went out with my sister and two friends from camp. we watched the princess and the frog. it was utterly boring. i do not recommend it to any1 above the age of 10. seriously. i wanted to watch avatar or zombieland. unfortunately, avatar was sold out and my sister was too short to pas as an 18 year old. so no zombieland either. sad...

ah.. i see i've written a whole essay. hope u ppl didnt fall asleep. gotta go now. i'll be back soon to blog again. oh ya.. i just remembered something. camp was made more fun bcuz a certain some1 was there!!! haha! i dare you to guess who!!!

till next time ppl.

p.s. merry xmas and a happy new year to all!!!

xoxo

randomness...

ok. so i am going to be random and talk about everything that comes to mind. this will be my last post till spm is over. pray for me all of you!!!! and i'll definitely remember all of you in my prayers..

thank you ys about your comments. but you're biased. since he is your best friend and you cant criticize him!!! haha!!! XD

and baby messaged me saying did i have to put that pic of him on my blog. he says that its ugly... well baby.. like i told you, not many people read my blog. i think. haha!!! dont worry though. i know from some people that all the girls in tuition think you're so cute too. so as long as they and me think that you're cute, you dont have to worry. haha!!!

and to all november babies, especially my grandma, ys and baby... and not to forget aunty pat, happy birthday to all of you!!! hugs!!!!!

i have to off now. kinda sad la. haiz... but i need to eat lunch and go over to my uncle's house. so... till after spm people.

dont forget to pray for me and my exams. thanks so so so very much!!! XD

XOXO!!

only 5 days...

so it is now only 5 days... scratch that.. less than 5 days left till spm is gonna start. and 4 weeks till its over. i cant help wishing for it to be over but that also means that i have very little time left to study. haiz. and that day when i was thinking about birthdays, i couldn't help realizing that mine is just 4 months away. thats the good news. the bad news is... spm results is more or less in that month too!!!
NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i m not going to think about that now. hehe.

so the past few weeks, big baby(kent), grandpa(philip) and ys has been coming over to my house to study. hope they managed to. since we talked and played a lot too. XD history, add math, physics.. omg!! can die wei!!!

the good thing about them coming over is that i get to see big baby! haha! i still think he's the most cutest 17 year old kid ever! hands down. i cant get over how cute he is. but only maybe i think he's cute. i'll let you decide that.


so you decide and tell me k? haha!! XD
p.s. dont you think that he looks like he wants to kiss some1? or rather the camera? haha! XD

and grandpa is so super funny. haha. seriously. he reminds me of ming long. hehe!

the sad part though is that leo couldnt make it over. i still miss him lots. cant wait for exams to be over so that i can see him. lol.

well, guess thats all i got time to blog about for now. till next time, which probably will be after spm.

to all spm students, good luck in ur exams!!! XD

xoxo...

freaky friday.

yer.. so unfair!!! grandpa never come my house today. and yesterday he came but i dont think he even learn anything. lol. but so fun la him. haha. all the jokes and wanting to dance and sing. haha. and i think ys was happy since i didnt bully him so much yesterday. thanks to grandpa. and i so dont understand how ys got so good luck yeterday always winning when we were playing chor tai ti! T.T while me and grandpa didnt even win once.... except maybe me. that also only once out of i dont know how many times we played. lol. oh well. i gotta go now. my brother wants the internet and ys is currently waiting for me to start studying. lol. and i cant believe that i am about to lose a bet with him!!!!!! yer!!!! all because of big baby!!! hhmph. haiz. gotta go now.

till next time people!!! XD

xoxo.

randomness

so.. i just got back from school. lol. u know what, a friend brought the latest hot mag to school today. and it has lots of pics of jacob(new moon). omg!!!!! he is so damn hot man! in the pictures there was one of him in wet t-shirt and it was showing his six packs!!! so bloody hot. but dont worry. i'm still a loyal fan to tom felton. hehe!!! and english cklass was super fun. discipline teacher came in and we were joking so much. haha. and during moral, we were talking about girls and guys with the teacher. so cool. lol. later soon i got a study session with ys and granpa(philip). lol/ study history and bio. bleh.. so boring. lol. cant wait for spm over. and i got my spm schedule today. wow!!! so full wei. all my exams one after anotheer. i am so going to die. lol. oh well, i'll just have to try my best to cope with that. haha.

till nex time ppl.

xoxo. XD

sunday.

hey..
today has been a really boring day. have to go off line soon. lol. some frens just reminded me that i only have about 18 dAYs to spm... i so dun wan spm to come.

but to be honest, i also cant wait for it to end. i think there is somethin wrong with me. haha..

i cant wait for rally at the end of the year. lucky for me spm ends 3 days before rally. YAY!!!

i dunno if i should go to school 2moro. not much of a point actually. maybe i'll skip school and study at home. gotta prepare for my tuition class on tuesday anyway. wiyh yuen sern. cant wait to torture him. MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!! XD

and to one person that i dont want to mention, please stop trying to dream of me!!! its so scary!!! lol. but i love you always! haha. i'm just being really random now.

anyway, to all spm students... GOOD LUCK STUDYING PPL!!!

thats all for now.

xoxo..

wealth, success or love?

Subject: Love , Weath and Success, whom to be come in to your home first
>
> A woman came out of her house and saw 3 old men with long white beards
> sitting in her front yard. She did not recognize them. She said 'I don't
> think I know you, but you must be hungry. Please come in and have
> something to eat.'
>
>
> 'Is the man of the house home?', they asked.
>
>
> 'No', she replied. 'He's out.'
>
> 'Then we cannot come in', they replied.
>
> In the evening when her husband came home, she told him what had happened.
>
> 'Go tell them I am home and invite them in!'
>
> The woman went out and invited the men in'
>
> 'We do not go into a House together,' they replied.
>
>
> 'Why is that?' she asked.
>
>
> One of the old men explained: 'His name is Wealth,' he said pointing to
> one of his friends, and said pointing to another one, 'He is Success, and
> I am Love.' Then he added, 'Now go in and discuss with your husband which
> one of us you want in your home.'
>
>
> The woman went in and told her husband what was said. Her husband was
> overjoyed. 'How nice!!', he said. 'Since that is the case, let us invite
> Wealth. Let him come and fill our home with wealth!'
>
> His wife disagreed. 'My dear, why don't we invite Success?'
>
> Their daughter-in-law was listening from the other corner of the house.
> She jumped in with her own suggestion: 'Would it not be better to invite
> Love? Our home will then be filled with love!'
>
> 'Let us heed our daughter-in-law's advice,' said the husband to his wife.
>
> 'Go out and invite Love to be our guest.'
>
> The woman went out and asked the 3 old men, 'Which one of you is Love?
> Please come in and be our guest.'
>
> Love got up and started walking toward the house. The other 2 also got up
> and followed him. Surprised, the lady asked Wealth and Success: 'I only
> invited Love, Why are you coming in?'
>
> The old men replied together: 'If you had invited Wealth or Success, the
> other two of us would've stayed out, but since you invited Love, wherever
> He goes, we go with him. Wherever there is Love, Nothing is too much
> trouble and there will be also Wealth and Success!!!!!!'
>
> MY WISH FOR YOU...
> -Where there is pain, I wish you peace and mercy.
> -Where there is self-doubting, I wish you a renewed confidence in your
> ability to work through it.
> -Where there is tiredness, or exhaustion, I wish you understanding,
> patience, and renewed strength.
> -Where there is fear, I wish you love, and courage.

what would you do?

What would you do if every time you fell in love with someone you had to say good-bye?
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What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

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What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness?

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What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?

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What would you do if you loved someone more than anything else and you could never have them?

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Some people live and some people die.

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But I want to tell you I love you and you are a true friend...

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That I will always be here for you when and if you need me...

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If I died tomorrow, you would be in my heart forever.
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Would I be in yours?

profound statements!

profound statements!

57cents church

Hi............would you believe 57 cents can make a huge difference if you
> add love, compassion and devotion to it. Pls read on..........
>
>
> > A little girl stood
> > near a small church from which she had been turned away because it was
> > "too crowded."
>
> > "I can't go to Sunday School," she sobbed to the pastor as he walked
> > by.
> >
> >
> > Seeing her shabby, unkempt appearance, the pastor guessed the reason
> > and, taking her by the hand, took her inside and found a place for her
> > in the Sunday school class. The child was so happy that they found
> > room for her, and she went to bed that night thinking of the children
> > who have no place to worship Jesus .
> >
> >
> >
> > Some two years later, this child lay dead in one of the poor tenement
> > buildings. Her parents called for the kindhearted pastor who had
> > befriended their daughter to handle the final arrangements..
> >
> >
> >
> > As her poor little body was being moved, a worn and
> > crumpled red purse was found which seemed to have been
> > rummaged from some trash
> > dump.
> >
> >
> >
> > Inside was found 57 cents and a note, scribbled in childish
> > handwriting, which read: "This is to help build the
> > little church bigger so more children can go to Sunday
> > School."
> >
> >
> >
> > For two years she had saved for this offering of
> > love.
> >
> >
> >
> > When the pastor tearfully read that note, he knew instantly
> > what he would do. Carrying this note and the cracked, red
> > pocketbook to the pulpit, he told the story of her unselfish
> > love and devotion.
> >
> >
> >
> > He challenged his deacons to get busy and raise enough
> > money for the larger
> > building.
> >
> >
> >
> > But the story does not end
> > there...
> >
> >
> >
> > A newspaper learned of the story and published It. It was
> > read by a wealthy realtor who offered them a parcel of land
> > worth many thousands.
> >
> >
> >
> > When told that the church could not pay so much, he offered
> > to sell it to the little church for 57
> > cents.
> >
> >
> > Church members made large donations. Checks came from far
> > and wide.
> >
> > Within five years the little girl's gift had increased
> > to $250,000.00--a huge sum for that time (near the turn of
> > the century). Her unselfish love had paid large
> > dividends.
> >
> >
> >
> > When you are in the city ofPhiladelphia ,
> > look up Temple Baptist
> > Church , with a seating
> > capacity of 3,300. And be sure to visit TempleUniversity,
> > where thousands of students are
> > educated.
> >
> >
> >
> > Have a look, too, at the GoodSamaritan
> > Hospital and at a Sunday
> > School building which houses hun dreds of beautiful
> > children, built so that no child in the area will ever need
> > to be left outside during Sunday school
> > time.
> >
> >
> >
> > In one of the rooms of this building may be seen the
> > picture of the sweet face of the little girl whose 57 cents,
> > so sacrificially saved, made such remarkable history.
> > Alongside of it is a portrait of her kind pastor, Dr.
> > Russell H. Conwell , author of the book, "Acres of
> > Diamonds".
> >
> >
> >
> > This is a true story, which goes to show WHAT GOD CAN DO
> > WITH 57 CENTS.
> >
>
> > This is a powerful novena.

graduation nite...

hey ppl. sorry i havent been online lately. so i've returned to talk about my graduation night. it was last friday on the 23rd. and because it was a formal event, i had to wear a... DRESS! omg!!! and i was in front of the two lines and had to walk in first. scary experience. especially since i was wearing heels. i am very dangerously unstable in my heels. haha. so any way, we had lots of food that didnt taste so bad. and we had to go up on stage to get our scrolls and our souvenirs. i got a winnie the pooh graduate! so adorable man. haha.. and there were performances too. and in between our courses of great many dishes, we managed to go around and camwhore wit every living friends there. all in all, i enjoyed myself, despite being in a dress and heels. here are a few pics of me in a dress for your benefit. enjoy it since the next time you'll see me in a dress is during my wedding, which is a long way more. XD maybe, just maybe, if you're lucky, i'll wear a dress for x'mas. lol. but dont hold your breath. hehe!!!!

thats all for now. chioaz!!!

weekends and raya!!!

ok.. friday and saturday was an extremely dull and boring day. thank goodness i had a very very very extremely good friend who was willing to waste his credit to call me and entertain me. my very own entertainer!!! so thanks lots to yuen sern! saturday was slightly better. it was dull in the morning. i was watching cartoons like a five year old kid! lol!! in the afternoon i went to bible class and there was only 10 of us there! kinda wasting my time actually but if i didnt go, my best friend lyn would have tortured me wen she saw me.. in the night, i saw a mlay movie titled salam terakhir, starring rosyam nor. it was a sad movie but i didnt cry because i couldnt. but my mum and sister was crying by the buckets like you wouldnt believe!!! i was laughing the whole time at the ending because of this! it was HILARIOUS!! and again i talked to yuen sern till it was really late. until he couldnt wake up today to go jogging when he wanted to. haha! always full of excuses and he blamed me too! so unfair! then today i went to cjurch in the morning, came back and slept like a baby. when i woke up i went to my uncle's house for raya! man.. the food was DELICIOUS!!!! haha. especially the rendang! YUM!!!!!! overall, i think my weekend was pretty boring. but at the same time, i had some fun. i guess as the saying goes, good stuff comes in small packages. so to all my muslim friends and their family, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI. MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN!!! =P

exams!

omg!! exams are starting on tuesday. its going to be a long three weeks. its going to be one of the longest and most torturing time of my life. aargh!!!! and to think that now only i am settling down to study. i tried studying yesterday, it was history. i nearly want to sleep ady. if this goes on, i am going to die for spm man! haiz..

SWIMMING

swimming is so cool man. haha. i still remember last year. i had pool parties after pool parties after pool parties. haha. it was the awesome, fantastic, fun, etc, etc, etc... haha

here are some pics of me with my church friends in the pool.

this is a pic of us all together. as you can see, there are more guys at the party compared to girls. it was a bit of a havoc. the guys were throwing and dunking us girls in the pool. i think i choked and swallowed a lot of chlorine water.


now this was all of us after the party. we were quite reluctant to go home because we had a lot of fun together.

i miss those days now. i cant wait for spm to be over so that i can organise a pool party that will bring us all together again and have fun!

weird life..

what a weird life i have. its really funny actually.
i listen to others and offer them advice but i never seem to take it at all.
truth be told, i really actually don't know how to follow my own advice.
no wonder my life is pretty screwed up huh?
i mean, take a closer look at me and you might be stunned to find out about certain stuff that i never tell people.
i dont feel secure enough to go and spill all my problems to others.
its not that i dont trust them, dont get me wrong.
i am just not an open person.
lately though, i have found someone that i have come to be able to talk to.
i like that person lots too.
i feel so much better after talking to that person.
but somehow, i managed to screw things up between us.
the problem is quite complicated.
i really hope that the tension between us will dissolve some how.

PRAY FOR ME PEOPLE BECAUSE I NEED IT!

my wishes!

here is a list of my top 10 wishes:

1. my friends to have a surprise birthday part for me(i cant remember when was my last party actually!)
2. to be able to meet tom felton a.k.a. draco malfoy in real life
3. to be able to sing with all my fav singers! (to many to name)
4. to go for the world youth day on madrid, spain in 2011
5. to be able to drive before i am 19! (hint to my parents :P)
6. to go to a gay club with my friends just to see whats it like (omg)
7. to travel the world especially rome, hawaii, paris...
8. to build a perfect career for myself (becoming the best criminal profiler)
9. to be constantly surrounded by my friends and family whom i love

AND THE 10TH WISH IS OF COURSE TO BE ABLE TO SETTLE DOWN WITH THE BEST GUY WHO WILL ALWAYS LOVE ME!!!!!!

youth rally!!

omg!! today has been a very cool day. filled wit memories from the past. youth rally was an awesome journey for me last year. i gained a lot of confidence and friends. but most of all, i gained a great presence in my life. i had gained god. it was an experience of a life time. it is irreplaceable for me. personally, it will constantly remain in my most cherished memories. being on a team of 19 youths of the same faith was something different. we all came from different backgrounds. each being brought up differently. but it was the best time of our lives. watching the video of us performing during the rally was actually really fun to watch. imagine us after months of training, we were all so nervous about screwing up on stage!
but watching it just now was really hilarious! this was because even though we made mistakes, we still managed to pull of a great performance! we were all so proud of ourselves. the mistakes we made was so so so funny that we were laughing till our sides ache.

so to the youth rally outreach team of 2008...
KUDOS to all of us for a job well done! we know we are the best! i love all of you!!!

a poem written by a friend about me..

have you seen sassy Jac?
there's nothing that she lacks,
Milky Way's her favourite snack,
she loves reading paperbacks.

the girl's a good writer,
a soul fighter,
wants to be a profiler,
not a famous singer.

jac used to be quiet,
but now she's a riot,
her personality, she had pivot,
coz' in her life, she's the pilot.

this was written by a rubini whom i have known since std 4. thanks rubini!!!

holidays!!!

omg!!! the holidays r finally coming. even if for one week, i m gonna enjoy it to the max!! ironic isn't it? wen school closed down as a precaution i couldn't wait to go back. now, I'm so eager for holidays.. *roll eyes* haha. i mean.. its just so boring at home if only your school is closed. no one to hang out with. but who am i kidding man... now that the august hols r here, that means spm is getting closer every freaking day! i wonder what it would feel like wen we only have a week left? i shudder at that thought. its too frightening to even think about. i guess this holidays wont only be about having fun or distressing. its going to be alot of studying for all of us too. sometimes, i wished i could build a time machine and go back in time. then i can kill the person who thought the idea of exams. that way, i wouldn't have to worry about it at all. any1 wanna help me in doing that? haha.. guess that is just the life of all form 5, huh? filled with stress to the max. haiz. time flies really fast. especially this year. hmmm. i wonder where all my time went to? oh well. the best thing now is to pray to ogd to help us and STUDY lots!

love or hate?

love or hate?

i dunno whether i should love or dislike my brother now.. he disturb only. i wanna use my internet tomorrow but he taking the wireless connection. but that day he helped me with my English homework. so what should i do? i wanna scream. haiz... but the best part of having him though is bein able to bully him. after all, he's leavin in jan 2011. that doesnt leave me with much time. so when ever i see him now, i tease him and disturb him as much as i can. thats kinda my way of bonding with him i guess. gonna miss him lots when he's gone. hmmm. maybe i'll ask him to buy me more presents before ho goes off. haha. not like he would. he's so stingy and not to mention forgetful too. haha. so funny la my brother. thinking about it now, i realise i have one funny, nice-to-bully, forgetful and damn smart elder brother. i think if i didnt have him in my life, it wouldnt feel complete. i think my life would be pretty dull without him.. crazy ryte? i know... but who else would i bully then? guess i do... lo..lo...lov... i might as well say it now.. i guess i do love him after all. oh wel.. life could be far worse than admitting that i love him. haha. oh ya. before i forget, kor... if you read this, dont let everything that i say go to your head K? haha.. :P

life

why is my life so complicated?
i cant get the right,
my friends r weird just like me...
we r crazy fun wen we're together,
complete opposites of each other.
yet life is ever exciting with one another,
oh, d joys of being together!
i hope that life is 24/7
of having fun, but the responsibilities
of an spm student is such a bother,
always being pushed to study, study, STUDY!!!
it gets frustrating after a while,
and u just feel like giving up.
so lets together face the impossible,
and prove that we can do it,
and then later,
is having FUN all d TIME!!!!

wassup!!!!

hi ppl... i just started so bear wit me k??? haha. ok.. so how's life ppl??? i feel so bored grounded at home and SPM is just a few months away!!!! FREAKY!!! i cant concentrate though.. wil some1 give me tips on how not to fail add maths???!!! :) i'm so screwed man. i don wanna die early but my future don look so good wei. probably got a higher chance of survivin if i didnt have an extra too smart 4 his shoes. haiz... gtg. bye ppl..