tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-78062238381695989662024-03-04T21:05:07.621-08:00just a girljyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.comBlogger108125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-56595363602080315982012-09-09T09:20:00.003-07:002012-09-09T09:20:49.464-07:00A WHOLE NEW WORLDsentimentality.. lol.. i sit here and i read all my past posts. it revolved so much around you boy. the heartaches, the tears, the joys.. all those memories. even till now i still think of you. but you know what boy? you weren't worth my time and energy and definitely not my thoughts. all my fears that i expressed were in the end true and reasonable. you did hurt me so badly. but i FORGIVE you. now, you're just my past. i hope you will be happy...<br />
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now i have a new person in life. you know who you are. :) you make me happy. an d i give you all my heart. it is bruised and broken in places.. but in time, i know you will help me heal. i can ask for no better person than you. thank you..<br />
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you know how life has so many obstacles for us? and time and time again we just want to stay down and not get back up? i've actually lost count of how many times that has happened to me. but i know that every cloud has it's silver lining. :)<br />
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<span style="color: #38761d;"><b><i>it's a new beginning,</i></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #38761d;"><b><i>it's a start over,</i></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #38761d;"><b><i>it's another chance given,</i></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #38761d;"><b><i>it's an opportunity to let go of old.</i></b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #38761d;"><b><i>time to forget,</i></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #38761d;"><b><i>time to forgive,</i></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #38761d;"><b><i>time to look forward,</i></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #38761d;"><b><i>time to move on.</i></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #38761d;"><b><i><br /></i></b></span>
<span style="color: #38761d;"><b><i>i've forgiven you, my old,</i></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #38761d;"><b><i>i've accepted you, my new,</i></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #38761d;"><b><i>i've forgotten you, my past,</i></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #38761d;"><b><i>i've given you, my future.</i></b></span><br />
<br />jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-52747977625382645342012-09-09T08:00:00.000-07:002012-09-09T08:00:38.324-07:00WELCOME BACK! :)HEY YO!!! omg.. i so need to stop this. it's been ages since i've been back here. new life in college, new people that we meet but same ol' me. hahaha.<br />
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whee. got loads of works to do. really cool assignments. lol. well, i promise i will be back soon again. peace yo! :Pjyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-1968286752521204702011-08-28T09:18:00.000-07:002011-08-28T09:18:06.962-07:00hello!!!!omg! its been so long since i was here. hehe. kinda miss bein here. sorry blog! i have tumblr know till i forgot about you! :(<br />
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dun hate me k?<br />
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lol.. haiz.. i ws just reading my previous entries on this blog. and i came across 1 where i was telling that he sorta proposed to me...<br />
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its never gonna happen for real now. we broke up about 6 days ago. ouch! it hurts like crazy. i cried a lot. but hey, im moving on. i feel alone but i know that my friends and family are there for me.<br />
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this pat week has been really down for m. even my school stuff. but thank and praise god, i am ok. and thats what matters.<br />
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hey! i'll be back ok? gotta go now. see ya! i'll be back soon! i'll be back! 2pm! hehe! :)jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-71732225212862414792010-12-18T01:10:00.001-08:002010-12-18T01:10:48.756-08:00reblogged....hey.. tis is my new blog site.. so ya.. tis is just goin stale. so check out the new bloggie k?? i'll link it. http://crazinessunlimited.tumblr.com/jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-49184982942224409712010-12-06T07:04:00.001-08:002010-12-06T07:04:26.180-08:00Ghost Caught on Video (HD)<iframe height="295" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/9L2lDHNmRFw?fs=1" frameborder="0" width="480"></iframe>jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-73744808170034749372010-12-06T07:04:00.000-08:002010-12-06T07:04:25.516-08:00Ghost Caught on Video (HD)<iframe height="295" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/9L2lDHNmRFw?fs=1" frameborder="0" width="480"></iframe>jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-41061737679223531692010-12-06T06:56:00.000-08:002010-12-06T06:56:56.607-08:00of nothingness and ghosts??have you ever met a ghost?? its creepy and scary. i saw 1 when i was in form 4. me and my team mates from ot2008!<br />
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did you ever wonder what you would do if you ever met 1??? haha! not to scare you more but its no fun if i dont write about some fun stuff right?? i'll probably bore all of you if i only talk about my personal life! ahaha..<br />
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so i'll leave you a video. maybe. hopefully you enjoy it!<br />
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my sis will kill me if she saw me doing this. hee.jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-85891734307534092112010-12-05T06:22:00.000-08:002010-12-05T06:22:06.170-08:00a many of my randomness..<span style="color: red;">wow.. i am just so sleepy. haha.. awesome as yesterday was(my bro's lil surprise bday party), i only went to sleep at 3. i wasted half of today by sleepin. i look like a PANDA!!! seriously. the bags under my sweet innocent eyes *ahem ahem* is just so obvious!!!</span><br />
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<strong><span style="color: red;">GONE!!!</span></strong><br />
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<span style="color: red;">i cant wait for this tuesday.finally get to see my lil hubby. haha. after 3 torturing weeks. oohhh.. haha. its kinda funny. he sorta... nvm. haha.. i'll tell ya all about it later. hee! :)</span><br />
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<span style="color: red;">i cant believe my 2 nephews are so cute and amazingly adorably sweet! especially tristan. his eyes is big! i wanna hold him all the time.. and keep him if possible. :P</span><br />
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<span style="color: red;">ok.. this is what i wanted to say. he sorta proposed to me! haha. it was all so funny. but oh well. i love him! haha.</span><br />
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<span style="color: red;">XOXO <3 <3</span>jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-26793465506712081052010-11-30T02:31:00.000-08:002010-11-30T02:31:31.428-08:00missing sickness!<div style="color: orange; text-align: center;"><b>ok. i am sick with the worst flu of this year... or maybe the second half of the year. i am so seriously suffering! hate it when i am sick with flu! ugh!!!!</b></div><div style="color: orange; text-align: center;"><b><br />
</b></div><div style="color: orange; text-align: center;"><b>some of you may be asking, am i love sick?? after all i havent seen him for quite awhile.. the answer is no! ok. i maybe missing him like a lot a lot. but i am sick because of jennifer. she passed me her flu virus on sunday! its horrible. and to top it off.. well. i'm having a bloody month. =.=" it sucks!</b></div><div style="color: orange; text-align: center;"><b><br />
</b></div><div style="color: orange; text-align: center;"><b>but i am coping. hee. at least i am not that weak like how he calls me. i mean, i am recovering already. pretty fast since my flu always lasts at least 3-4 days.</b></div><div style="color: orange; text-align: center;"><b><br />
</b></div><div style="color: orange; text-align: center;"><b>and come to think of it. he only has 2 days left of exam. stretched over a period of 2 weeks! so annoying. wish it was all done and gone already. haha.</b></div><div style="color: orange; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="color: orange; text-align: center;"><b>rubini just invited me out on friday to celebrate someone's birthday. and i just remembered that its my 6th month with him on that day too. hee. maybe i can drag him out on that day. the chances of that happening is very very slim. but hey, if i dont ask i wont know. haha.</b></div><div style="color: orange; text-align: center;"><b><br />
</b></div><div style="color: orange; text-align: center;"><b>anyway, thats all from me for today. i feel the urge to sneeze really hugely. so i better go. haha! tc and gb!!</b></div><div style="color: red; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: red;">xoxo <3 <3</span></div>jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-47904951769020683732010-11-28T23:45:00.000-08:002010-11-28T23:45:57.582-08:00TIRED!<div style="background-color: black; color: #6aa84f;">omg!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</div><div style="background-color: black; color: #6aa84f;"><br />
</div><div style="background-color: black; color: #6aa84f;">ok. i know i am not supposed to use his name in vain. SORRY!!!</div><div style="background-color: black; color: #6aa84f;"><br />
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but i am T-TOTALLY TIRED OUT!!!!</div><div style="background-color: black; color: #6aa84f;"><br />
</div><div style="background-color: black; color: #6aa84f;">i cant believe that my crazy brother made me clean the house. it is practically clean. just a bit messed up. but more or less dust free.</div><div style="background-color: black; color: #6aa84f;"><br />
</div><div style="background-color: black; color: #6aa84f;">then i had to cook 2 maggi mee for him. lol. my hands are peeling. i mean the skin. and its raw from squeezing the mop and cloth over and over.</div><div style="background-color: black; color: #6aa84f;"><br />
</div><div style="background-color: black; color: #6aa84f;">if it weren't for something special, i wont even bother. haha!!!</div><div style="background-color: black; color: #6aa84f;"><br />
</div><div style="background-color: black; color: #6aa84f;">anyway, thanks kor for coming over and cleaning the fan. you saved me from climbing the damn tall and scary ladder! hee.</div><div style="background-color: black; color: #6aa84f;"><br />
</div><div style="background-color: black;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #6aa84f;">muah!!! <3 <3</span></div>jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-87238799251613731562010-11-27T06:18:00.000-08:002010-11-27T06:18:29.001-08:00how it flies???<span style="color: blue;">i cant believe that sometimes it seems like the time flies while at other times its just passing so sow. you know what i mean??</span><br />
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<span style="color: blue;">haha..i mean..</span><br />
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<span style="color: blue;">it seemed only like it was yesterday that i started form6. and now, my dearest seniors are sitting for their stpm exams. and mine is next year. exactly less than a year to go. its freak and scary. hearing from my boyfriend that his exams are tough! and he's in the arts stream. imagine the pressure for the science students!!!!</span><br />
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<span style="color: blue;">and yet, it doesnt seem fast enough that 2 weeks not seeing my baby feels like 2 years! goodness.!</span><br />
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<span style="color: blue;">life is like that u guess. the time when we want it to go by fast, it wont. when we dont want it to fly by, it will. so ironic dont you think??</span><br />
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<span style="color: blue;">anyway, i was just looking at a video taken at the u6a2 class during the class gotong royong! poor 'slaves'. all the l6'ers had to clean the upper 6 classes.</span><br />
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<span style="color: blue;">at least the u6a2 class was having fun. me and the twins were tortured. that about sums it all. haha!</span><br />
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<span style="color: blue;">oh well...</span><br />
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<em><strong><span style="color: purple;">sweet and bitter memories,</span></strong></em><br />
<em><strong><span style="color: purple;">each one treasured like gold.</span></strong></em><br />
<em><strong><span style="color: purple;">we'll never forget the times we had,</span></strong></em><br />
<em><strong><span style="color: purple;">cuz it was new and old,</span></strong></em><br />
<em><strong><span style="color: purple;">new experiences with old seniors!</span></strong></em><br />
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<span style="color: red;">=)</span>jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-41013313062449332032010-11-21T05:24:00.000-08:002010-11-21T05:24:02.924-08:00impossible is nothing.<div style="color: lime;"><b>you stole my heart,</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>you stalked my dreams,</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>you took my everything.</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b><br />
</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>you gave me your love,</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>you supported me with your strength,</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>you lighted my world.</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b><br />
</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>i trusted you,</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>i gave you my everything.</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b><br />
</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>i believed in you,</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>and just wanna offer you this lil thing..</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><br />
</div><div style="color: lime;"><b>life is hard,</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>its tough and cold,</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>but i'm here for you,</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>giving you the warmth you need.</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b><br />
</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>we have our weaknessess,</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>we have our strong parts,</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>but without each other,</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>we're only halves and halves.</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b><br />
</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>so when you sit for your exams,</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>i'll be at home,</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>praying and supporting you always.</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b><br />
</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>dont give up,</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>dont give in.</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>just do your best,</b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b>amd baby you'll win!</b></div><br />
<div style="color: red;"><b>aja aja hwaiting!</b></div><div style="color: red;"><b><br />
</b></div><div style="color: red;"><b>hugs!!! muah!!!</b></div><div style="color: red;"><b><br />
</b></div><b><span style="color: red;">xoxo. <3</span></b>jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-30976538532113970092010-11-17T02:33:00.000-08:002010-11-17T02:33:38.952-08:00i cant believe it. omg!!! ok. this is gonna be coded. only you few people will understand.<br />
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its just so weird. hmm.. i dunno what to say about it actually.<br />
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oh well. i think we're gonna be doing it again?? ryte people??? haha. so maybe i'll tell you one day what it was like.<br />
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oohhh..<br />
i learned a few korean verses too!!! but i dont know how to pronounce it. -_______-"<br />
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hopefully after stpm, my lovely baby would teach me. hee!!<br />
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XOXO <3 <3jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-64052652436894160122010-11-12T22:14:00.000-08:002010-11-12T22:16:18.459-08:00loneliness settles in<div style="color: blue;"><b><i>i try to send you a message,</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>but yet you ignored it,</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>i try to tell you through signs,</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>;but yet you did not understand it.</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i><br />
</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>it hurts to think,</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>it hurts to imagine,</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>it hurts to go through it,</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>it hurts to feel it,</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>it hurts to talk about it,</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>it just hurts all the time.</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i><br />
</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>how could you?</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>i thought you would be there all the time for me.</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>how could you?</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>i thought you understood me.</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>how could you?</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>i thought you promised never to leave me alone.</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>how could you?</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>you broke it and left me to be by myself.</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i><br />
</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>it hurts a lot and yet i have no one to turn to.</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>it hurts a lot and yet i have no one to talk to.</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>it hurs a lot and yet there is no one to comfort me.</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>it hurts a lot and yet there is no one to cheer me up.</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>it hurts a lot and yet there is no one there for me.</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i><br />
</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>i can only be here alone,</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>by myself while i hurt.</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>i grieve because you left me.</i></b></div><div style="color: blue;"><b><i>left me alone to control myself.</i></b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b><i><br />
</i></b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b><i>but i wont give up hope.</i></b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b><i>i will continue to be strong.</i></b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b><i>i will pray for help,</i></b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b><i>for god has never forsaken me.</i></b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b><i>with him i will be able to make it trough,</i></b></div><div style="color: lime;"><b><i>even if you are not by my side all the time.</i></b></div><br />
<div style="color: magenta;">tis is my destiny.</div><div style="color: magenta;"><b>AND I WILL BE STRONG AND NOT GIVE UP HOPE!</b></div><br />
<div style="color: red;">i love you and i forgive you.</div><div style="color: red;">no matter what,</div><span style="color: red;">i wont let you go. </span>jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-29746506904401344032010-11-12T19:53:00.000-08:002010-11-12T22:03:15.350-08:00trying to forget.<div style="color: blue;">i simply dont understand. i try to see things from your view. i try to be patient. but i cant.</div><div style="color: blue;"><br />
</div><div style="color: blue;">i felt so hurt yet i kept it to myself and tried to comfort you. i did my best to bring that cheer back into your eyes. but i failed.</div><div style="color: blue;"><br />
</div><div style="color: blue;">truly, i find it hard to forgive what has happened. but my love for you is too strong. i realise that you mean more than the world to me. and i slowly let it fade away. all that pain that kept me awake the whole night. all the things that you said to me. its all finally forgiven if not forgotten.</div><div style="color: blue;"><br />
</div><div style="color: blue;">i simply cant face it anymore. i just want us to be happy. forever together. whatever that has happened is simply the past now. it is time i let go..</div><br />
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<b style="color: red;"><i>oh my sweet jesus. you're the only perfect person. we are just human. please give me the strength and will to forgive others just as you have forgiven us for our sins. you are ebver mercifull. i pray that i will be more like you. bless us both so that we will always face the trials ahead together. may our relationship be long and fruitful as i cannot live without him. i pray in your most holy and precious name. amen.</i></b>jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-5000321031915812182010-11-11T05:52:00.000-08:002010-11-11T05:52:25.054-08:00true to youself and me.<div style="color: red;">i am so happy and relieved and overjoyed because you are true to me. thank you baby.</div><br />
<div style="color: purple;"><b><i>baby,</i></b></div><div style="color: purple;"><b><i>you are just so great,</i></b></div><div style="color: purple;"><b><i>anything you do is for me,</i></b></div><div style="color: purple;"><b><i>without you in my life, </i></b></div><div style="color: purple;"><b><i>i cant imagine what it would be like for me.</i></b></div><div style="color: purple;"><b><i><br />
</i></b></div><div style="color: purple;"><b><i>baby,</i></b></div><div style="color: purple;"><b><i>you light up my life and shine the way for me,</i></b></div><div style="color: purple;"><b><i>even in my darkness you never left me,</i></b></div><div style="color: purple;"><b><i>like a meteor shooting across the sky,</i></b></div><div style="color: purple;"><b><i>you shot through my life and brightened it everyday.</i></b></div><div style="color: purple;"><b><i><br />
</i></b></div><div style="color: purple;"><b><i>baby,</i></b></div><div style="color: purple;"><b><i>life isnt perfect and neither are we,</i></b></div><div style="color: purple;"><b><i>but together we can create the best memories,</i></b></div><div style="color: purple;"><b><i>thank you for always being there by me,</i></b></div><b style="color: purple;"><i>together forever, you and me.</i></b>jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-39608905519157675942010-11-09T05:18:00.000-08:002010-11-09T05:18:55.712-08:00its all forgiven and forgotten<div style="color: #a64d79;">many times we tend to have a slip of the tongue. though not on purpose it can hurt the other party.</div><div style="color: #a64d79;"><br />
</div><div style="color: #a64d79;">i know i promised not to say that word ever again. but i was upset and disappointed. hence, i uttered it by accident. its not an excuse but i didnt mean it. as it turned out, it nearly ruined the whole afternoon.</div><br />
<div style="color: yellow;">on the upside, we actually talked about how we felt. its not often that we talk when we have an argument or misunderstanding. like the saying goes, every cloud has its silver lining. it showed that we were growing together. we are commmunicating.</div><br />
<div style="color: orange;">at the station, it was nice to be with you. poking was fun fun fun! hee.</div><br />
<div style="color: purple;">either ways, whatever that has happened, baby i am sorry. and i forgive you too. its all <b>FORGIVEN AND FORGOTTEN.</b></div><div style="color: purple;"><br />
</div><div style="color: purple;"><i>dear god, thank you for your guidance in my relationship. i pray that you'll help me to be a better person. continue to bless me and him so that we will grow stronger in our love. help us to forgive one another. amen.</i></div><br />
<span style="color: red;">xoxo <3 <3</span>jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-22246472387087874932010-11-06T06:02:00.000-07:002010-11-06T06:05:03.868-07:00past, present and future.<div style="color: orange;">its nice to be able to talk about the past. without having fights and arguments. though it certainly changed my impression a little.</div><div style="color: orange;"><br />
</div><div style="color: orange;">yet no one is perfect. not even me.</div><br />
<div style="color: purple;">so its ok. the past is to teach you. learn from it but dont dwell upon it.live in the present. its called present cause it is a gift each day that you live. look forward to the future as it gives you a reason to go on fighting and to do your best.</div><br />
<div style="color: lime;"><i>dear god, i pray that you will give me the courage, strength and wisdom as i take each step. lead me to the right path as i want to be closer to you each day. bless my relationships with my friends and family. and with my special beloved. thank you god for everything that you have given to me. amen.</i></div><br />
<div style="color: red;">love you always my dear and i hope you'll always love me too.</div><br />
<span style="color: magenta;">XOXO. <3 <3</span>jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-21759712743163177822010-11-04T05:44:00.000-07:002010-11-04T05:44:17.683-07:00Because You Loved Me - Celine Dion [Lyrics]<object style="background-image: url("http://i3.ytimg.com/vi/VMCTpQYqDLI/hqdefault.jpg");" width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/VMCTpQYqDLI?fs=1&hl=en_US"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/VMCTpQYqDLI?fs=1&hl=en_US" allowscriptaccess="never" allowfullscreen="true" wmode="transparent" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-56781363231949755382010-11-04T05:39:00.000-07:002010-11-04T05:39:59.942-07:00last day.<div style="color: purple;">yesterday..</div><div style="color: purple;"><br />
</div><div style="color: purple;">its my 5th month with my sayang. and the last day i spent with him. till after his stpm.</div><div style="color: purple;"><br />
</div><div style="color: purple;">it was pretty sweet. we sangs songs, watched full house and just plain hanged out. we tried not to think about the coming month. where we wont be able to see each other.</div><div style="color: purple;"><br />
</div><div style="color: purple;">well, its just a few weeks. but i am still gonna miss him.</div><br />
<div style="color: red;"><i>love you sayang. study hard and good luck. AJA AJA HWAITING!</i></div><br />
<span style="color: blue;">XOXO <3</span>jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-29454215560277750822010-11-02T07:29:00.000-07:002010-11-02T07:29:27.389-07:00i'm sorry!<span style="color: blue;">my dear baby,</span><span></span><br />
<br />
<div style="color: purple;">I AM SUPER SORRY!</div><br />
<div style="color: orange;">i didnt mean to say that i'll kill you. dont be hurt or upset with me already k? small girl girl is very SORRY!</div><div style="color: red;"><br />
</div><div style="color: red;">love you always! and happy 5th month! muahMUAH!</div><br />
<span style="color: magenta;">xoxo <3</span>jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-75573057071391636702010-10-30T06:33:00.000-07:002010-10-30T06:33:26.185-07:00sweet date!<div style="color: #93c47d;">i am so so so so happy today. after a whole month. and not being able to spend much time with my beloved boyfried, i finally managed to go out with him today.</div><br />
<div style="color: orange;">IT WAS AWESOME!!!</div><br />
<div style="color: blue;">seriously, i had fun on our date today. we watched the katherine hiegl and josh dummel show, LIFE AS WE KNOW IT. it was sweet and funny. the baby was so cute. and it showed some problems faced by parents when raising a child.</div><div style="color: blue;"><br />
</div><div style="color: blue;">before that we had kfc for lunch. haha. after 3 rounds at the parking lot trying to find a parking space, we went to kfc for lunch. unfortunately, we ended up walking a long way cuz i didnt know that kfc and mcd shifted. sorry baby!!!</div><div style="color: blue;"><br />
</div><div style="color: blue;">during the movie i cuddled with my boyfriend. he was so warm and cuddly. and it was perfect to watch the movie with him there.</div><div style="color: blue;"><br />
</div><div style="color: blue;">after that we went round finding for a perfect couple key chain but couldnt find it. instead we were eating ice cream and i brought him into all the girl's stall like sinma and diva. haha!</div><br />
<div style="color: purple;">all in all, i had a great time with him.our time together is so short alone. i felt very happy too be able to spend some precious moments with him today. cant wait for our skating date after stpm!</div><br />
<div style="color: red;"><i>sweet baby dear, thank you so much for today. i love you so much! muah!!!</i></div><br />
<span style="color: magenta;">XOXO <3 <3</span>jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-14115797784931968572010-10-28T07:03:00.000-07:002010-10-28T07:12:48.146-07:00nothingness..<div style="color: orange;">exams in form 6 is just a simple and legal way of killing students. that way the government gets to kill us but not get caught. seriously. the past few days have been tough. killed after each paper just to be reincarnated to sit for the next. CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!</div><div style="color: orange;"><br />
</div><div style="color: orange;">on the other hand, we have people like yu hong and quek. too smart for us. we suffer. they complain that they'll fail. so what about the rest of us?? we're just dead i guess. lol.</div><br />
<div style="color: blue;">and its weird. he doesnt accept a compliment when we say he's smart. but he says he is handsome. sweat! -_____- how funny! i have to beg to differ. i m on a different opinion. i dont even call my baby dear handsome. and in my opinion, my baby dear is definitely better looking.</div><div style="color: blue;"><br />
</div><div style="color: blue;">haha!!!! i may be biased but the fact is still true. lol.</div><br />
<div style="color: magenta;">i guess thats all for now. haha! i am so glad my comp is fixed and i finally got a broadband! can go on9 as often to keep things updated! yay! haha!</div><br />
<div style="color: red;"><i>anyways, a shout out to my friends and boyfriend who are all sitting for either spm and stpme.</i></div><div style="color: red;"><i><br />
</i></div><div style="color: red;"><i>gambate, aja aja hwaiting and all the best!!!!</i></div><div style="color: red;"><i><br />
</i></div><div style="color: red;"><i>love ya all esp my baby dear. muah!</i></div><br />
<div style="color: #cc0000;">XOXO <3</div>jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-79921668454097822632010-10-24T06:19:00.000-07:002010-10-24T06:19:42.015-07:00just blogging.<div style="color: blue;">blogging makes me feel happy. i can tell how i feel without anyone commenting too much about it. seriously, i feel no doubts what so ever when i am blogging.</div><div style="color: blue;"><br />
</div><div style="color: blue;">but sometimes, what i blogged about hurts the people around me. i dont write so that this happens. no! i blogged so that i can let go what i feel in me. to release that inner voice in me.</div><div style="color: blue;"><br />
</div><div style="color: blue;">so please dont take offend about what i write here. i only express what i feel. please dont misunderstand. k???</div><br />
<div style="color: magenta;"><i>i love all of you. and i wont offend you on purpose.</i></div><br />
<div style="color: red;">love ya all. love especially too my dearest baby. muah!</div><div style="color: red;"><br />
</div><span style="color: red;">XOXO <3 <3 <3</span>jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7806223838169598966.post-57074708825022302912010-10-23T07:35:00.000-07:002010-10-23T07:44:19.006-07:00cumbersomeness and unfairness!<strong><span style="color: purple;">i wonder why it is so unfair to me?</span></strong><br />
<br />
<span style="color: lime;">honestly, my dad scolds me for calling someone stupid on fb even though i did not state the person's name. and yet he was angry at me.</span><br />
<span style="color: lime;"><br />
</span><br />
<span style="color: lime;">but its not fair. why when my sister calls me a bitch or uses the f-word in front of him, he doesnt scold her?</span><br />
<span style="color: lime;"><br />
</span><br />
<span style="color: lime;">and in fact, i lernt it from him anyway. he's always scolding someone by using the f-word and calling them bitches and bastards. at least i only use stupid. i find it really unfair.</span><br />
<span style="color: lime;"><br />
</span><br />
...<br />
<br />
<span style="color: #3d85c6;">and then when i told him playfully that my boyfriend didnt feed me yesterday for lunch. do ou know what he replied? he told me "its your fault. who ask you so busy kiss and hug him? why you so stupid till didnt ask him for lucnh?"</span><br />
<span style="color: #3d85c6;"><br />
</span><br />
<span style="color: #3d85c6;">wth??!!!!</span><br />
<span style="color: #3d85c6;"><br />
</span><br />
<span style="color: #3d85c6;">i'm his daughter for crying out loud. what does he think i am? does he think that i only spend time with my boyfriend by kissing and hugging him??? even my mum thought it was a bit stupid of him to comment like that.</span><br />
<span style="color: #3d85c6;"><br />
</span><br />
<span style="color: #3d85c6;">i feel so upset and to quote lee yang yi, i feel cumbersome by what my dad has said. he doesnt realise that he has hurt my feelings.</span><br />
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<em><span style="color: magenta;">dear lord, help me to forgive my father even though he has hurt me. give me the strength so that i do not take offend towarsd him. help him see that i am not what he thinks i am. guide me my lord, so that what i do, is what seems right. i pray in your precious name.</span></em><br />
<br />
...<br />
<br />
<span style="color: #ffd966;">i dont know if i'll ever forget what he said to me. but i know i love my boyfriend a lot and we dont spend our time together by kissing and hugging. thats not who we are.</span><br />
<span style="color: #ffd966;"><br />
</span><br />
<span style="color: #ffd966;">he takes care of me and how i feel. and for that, my love for him can only grow.</span><br />
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<span style="color: red;">my sweet baby dearest, you're all i want, i ever needed and my everything. love you always!</span><br />
<span style="color: red;"><br />
</span><br />
<span style="color: red;">XOXO. <3 <3 <3</span>jyaphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01360539947370737622noreply@blogger.com0