missing sickness!

ok. i am sick with the worst flu of this year... or maybe the second half of the year. i am so seriously suffering! hate it when i am sick with flu! ugh!!!!

some of you may be asking, am i love sick?? after all i havent seen him for quite awhile.. the answer is no! ok. i maybe missing him like a lot a lot. but i am sick because of jennifer. she passed me her flu virus on sunday! its horrible. and to top it off.. well. i'm having a bloody month. =.=" it sucks!

but i am coping. hee. at least i am not that weak like how he calls me. i mean, i am recovering already. pretty fast since my flu always lasts at least 3-4 days.

and come to think of it. he only has 2 days left of exam. stretched over a period of 2 weeks! so annoying. wish it was all done and gone already. haha.

rubini just invited me out on friday to celebrate someone's birthday. and i just remembered that its my 6th month with him on that day too. hee. maybe i can drag him out on that day.  the chances of that happening is very very slim. but hey, if i dont ask i wont know. haha.

anyway, thats all from me for today. i feel the urge to sneeze really hugely. so i better go. haha! tc and gb!!

xoxo <3 <3

TIRED!

omg!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok. i know i am not supposed to use his name in vain. SORRY!!!

but i am T-TOTALLY TIRED OUT!!!!

i cant believe that my crazy brother made me clean the house. it is practically clean. just a bit messed up. but more or less dust free.

then i had to cook 2 maggi mee for him. lol. my hands are peeling. i mean the skin. and its raw from squeezing the mop and cloth over and over.

if it weren't for something special, i wont even bother. haha!!!

anyway, thanks kor for coming over and cleaning the fan. you saved me from climbing the damn tall and scary ladder! hee.

muah!!! <3 <3

how it flies???

i cant believe that sometimes it seems like the time flies while at other times its just passing so sow. you know what i mean??

haha..i mean..

it seemed only like it was yesterday that i started form6. and now, my dearest seniors are sitting for their stpm exams. and mine is next year. exactly less than a year to go. its freak and scary. hearing from my boyfriend that his exams are tough! and he's in the arts stream. imagine the pressure for the science students!!!!

and yet, it doesnt seem fast enough that 2 weeks not seeing my baby feels like 2 years! goodness.!

life is like that u guess. the time when we want it to go by fast, it wont. when we dont want it to fly by, it will. so ironic dont you think??

anyway, i was just looking at a video taken at the u6a2 class during the class gotong royong! poor 'slaves'. all the l6'ers had to clean the upper 6 classes.

at least the u6a2 class was having fun. me and the twins were tortured. that about sums it all. haha!

oh well...

sweet and bitter memories,
each one treasured like gold.
we'll never forget the times we had,
cuz it was new and old,
new experiences with old seniors!

=)

impossible is nothing.

you stole my heart,

you stalked my dreams,

you took my everything.

you gave me your love,

you supported me with your strength,

you lighted my world.

i trusted you,

i gave you my everything.

i believed in you,

and just wanna offer you this lil thing..

life is hard,

its tough and cold,

but i'm here for you,

giving you the warmth you need.

we have our weaknessess,

we have our strong parts,

but without each other,

we're only halves and halves.

so when you sit for your exams,

i'll be at home,

praying and supporting you always.

dont give up,

dont give in.

just do your best,

amd baby you'll win!

aja aja hwaiting!

hugs!!! muah!!!

xoxo. <3

i cant believe it. omg!!! ok. this is gonna be coded. only you few people will understand.

its just so weird. hmm.. i dunno what to say about it actually.

oh well. i think we're gonna be doing it again?? ryte people??? haha. so maybe i'll tell you one day what it was like.

oohhh..
i learned a few korean verses too!!! but i dont know how to pronounce it. -_______-"

hopefully after stpm, my lovely baby would teach me. hee!!

XOXO <3 <3

loneliness settles in

i try to send you a message,

but yet you ignored it,

i try to tell you through signs,

;but yet you did not understand it.

it hurts to think,

it hurts to imagine,

it hurts to go through it,

it hurts to feel it,

it hurts to talk about it,

it just hurts all the time.

how could you?

i thought you would be there all the time for me.

how could you?

i thought you understood me.

how could you?

i thought you promised never to leave me alone.

how could you?

you broke it and left me to be by myself.

it hurts a lot and yet i have no one to turn to.

it hurts a lot and yet i have no one to talk to.

it hurs a lot and yet there is no one to comfort me.

it hurts a lot and yet there is no one to cheer me up.

it hurts a lot and yet there is no one there for me.

i can only be here alone,

by myself while i hurt.

i grieve because you left me.

left me alone to control myself.

but i wont give up hope.

i will continue to be strong.

i will pray for help,

for god has never forsaken me.

with him i will be able to make it trough,

even if you are not by my side all the time.

tis is my destiny.

AND I WILL BE STRONG AND NOT GIVE UP HOPE!

i love you and i forgive you.

no matter what,

i wont let you go.

trying to forget.

i simply dont understand. i try to see things from your view. i try to be patient. but i cant.

i felt so hurt yet i kept it to myself and tried to comfort you. i did my best to bring that cheer back into your eyes. but i failed.

truly, i find it hard to forgive what has happened. but my love for you is too strong. i realise that you mean more than the world to me. and i slowly let it fade away. all that pain that kept me awake the whole night. all the things that you said to me. its all finally forgiven if not forgotten.

i simply cant face it anymore. i just want us to be happy. forever together. whatever that has happened is simply the past now. it is time i let go..

...

oh my sweet jesus. you're the only perfect person. we are just human. please give me the strength and will to forgive others just as you have forgiven us for our sins. you are ebver mercifull. i pray that i will be more like you. bless us both so that we will always face the trials ahead together. may our relationship be long and fruitful as i cannot live without him. i pray in your most holy and precious name. amen.

true to youself and me.

i am so happy and relieved and overjoyed because you are true to me. thank you baby.

baby,

you are just so great,

anything you do is for me,

without you in my life,

i cant imagine what it would be like for me.

baby,

you light up my life and shine the way for me,

even in my darkness you never left me,

like a meteor shooting across the sky,

you shot through my life and brightened it everyday.

baby,

life isnt perfect and neither are we,

but together we can create the best memories,

thank you for always being there by me,

together forever, you and me.

its all forgiven and forgotten

many times we tend to have a slip of the tongue. though not on purpose it can hurt the other party.

i know i promised not to say that word ever again. but i was upset and disappointed. hence, i uttered it by accident. its not an excuse but i didnt mean it. as it turned out, it nearly ruined the whole afternoon.

on the upside, we actually talked about how we felt. its not often that we talk when we have an argument or misunderstanding. like the saying goes, every cloud has its silver lining. it showed that we were growing together. we are commmunicating.

at the station, it was nice to be with you. poking was fun fun fun! hee.

either ways, whatever that has happened, baby i am sorry. and i forgive you too. its all FORGIVEN AND FORGOTTEN.

dear god, thank you for your guidance in my relationship. i pray that you'll help me to be a better person. continue to bless me and him so that we will grow stronger in our love. help us to forgive one another. amen.

xoxo <3 <3

past, present and future.

its nice to be able to talk about the past. without having fights and arguments. though it certainly changed my impression a little.

yet no one is perfect. not even me.

so its ok. the past is to teach you. learn from it but dont dwell upon it.live in the present. its called present cause it is a gift each day that you live. look forward to the future as it gives you a reason to go on fighting and to do your best.

dear god, i pray that you will give me the courage, strength and wisdom as i take each step. lead me to the right path as i want to be closer to you each day. bless my relationships with my friends and family. and with my special beloved. thank you god for everything that you have given to me. amen.

love you always my dear and i hope you'll always love me too.

XOXO. <3 <3

Because You Loved Me - Celine Dion [Lyrics]

last day.

yesterday..

its my 5th month with my sayang. and the last day i spent with him. till after his stpm.

it was pretty sweet. we sangs songs, watched full house and just plain hanged out. we tried not to think about the coming month. where we wont be able to see each other.

well, its just a few weeks. but i am still gonna miss him.

love you sayang. study hard and good luck. AJA AJA HWAITING!

XOXO <3

i'm sorry!

my dear baby,

I AM SUPER SORRY!

i didnt mean to say that i'll kill you. dont be hurt or upset with me already k? small girl girl is very SORRY!

love you always! and happy 5th month! muahMUAH!

xoxo <3