crazy lil thing called love

many people wonder what is love. including me.

i always imagined it to be like what the books describe. you know?? when you kiss a person and you'll hear bells? when you have found the person you love, it will take your breath away?? that sort of things that only will come true in fariytales.

imagine my horror when i finally wake up from this dream to find that it hardly ever happens that way! does this mean that i will never be able to find that boy who will swoop into my life like a knight in shining armour and steal my heart away?

sigh.. i dated 3 boys. and i loved them all. but they were not meant for me. they cared for me and some day i hope that they will find the perfect girl that deserves them. to those 3 boys, forgive me if i have hurt you. but know that i will always be there for you...

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so now comes the question.. who is this boy that was meant for me?is he even out there? or will i end up as a spinster with 77 cats?

i am happy to say that i found 1 boy who fits this dream boy of mine. he is everything i wished for and more. he loves me and takes care of me. he is cute, nice and sweet. what more could i possibly ask for?

of course, i still dream of certain things that he would do with me. for instance i wish that he could come over my house and spend time with me. i want to cuddle with him as we sit together watching a movie.

i want him to whisper in my ears that he loves me and that he belongs only with me at his side as he hugs me tightly. i wish that when he wins something he will win it for me. and after that he will take me in his arms as he kisses me. isnt this the kind of things that every girl dreams of?

i want to walk down a beach, holding his hands, as we talk about everything that we like. i dream of a moonlight dinner at a place so romantic.. and that he will sing a perfectly romantic song and dedicate it to me.

i wish that i could lie in bed with him next to me, hugging me, look me in the eye and whisper how much i meant to him and how much he loves me...

i know some of the things that i hope and dream of is a bit too extreme.. but if only it can be done then i would be the happiest person in this planet.

i want our love for each other to always be strong and last forever. for all the hurts and pains that he has caused me, i will always forgive him and smile for him so that he will always be happy.

for all the hurt that i have caused him, well, i am sincerely very sorry, my love.. i never meant to hurt yoou and if i could i would take it all back. i just want to hold you in my arms right now and be there for you always.

there is truly nothing in this world that i could want more than you. NOTHING. to have you by my side all the time is truly the best moments in my life. to be this in love with you.. its the best give that GOD could have ever given me.

thats just the beauty of love. it brings joy and sadness, happiness and tears. it creates problems and gives us the sweetest memories of each other. it is not perfect but it brings us closer to each other.  love is blind because it doesnt matter if you're not perfect. to make mistakes and to accept them. to always forgive one another.

truly, my dear, you have stolen my heart. there is nothing left of me that you do not own..

i love you forever and eternally..