a many of my randomness..

wow.. i am just so sleepy. haha.. awesome as yesterday was(my bro's lil surprise bday party), i only went to sleep at 3. i wasted half of today by sleepin. i look like a PANDA!!!  seriously. the bags under my sweet innocent eyes *ahem ahem* is just so obvious!!!

GONE!!!

i cant wait for this tuesday.finally get to see my lil hubby. haha. after 3 torturing weeks. oohhh.. haha. its kinda funny. he sorta... nvm. haha.. i'll tell ya all about it later. hee! :)

i cant believe my 2 nephews are so cute and amazingly adorably sweet! especially tristan. his eyes is big! i wanna hold him all the time.. and keep him if possible. :P

ok.. this is what i wanted to say. he sorta proposed to me! haha. it was all so funny. but oh well. i love him! haha.

XOXO <3 <3

missing sickness!

ok. i am sick with the worst flu of this year... or maybe the second half of the year. i am so seriously suffering! hate it when i am sick with flu! ugh!!!!

some of you may be asking, am i love sick?? after all i havent seen him for quite awhile.. the answer is no! ok. i maybe missing him like a lot a lot. but i am sick because of jennifer. she passed me her flu virus on sunday! its horrible. and to top it off.. well. i'm having a bloody month. =.=" it sucks!

but i am coping. hee. at least i am not that weak like how he calls me. i mean, i am recovering already. pretty fast since my flu always lasts at least 3-4 days.

and come to think of it. he only has 2 days left of exam. stretched over a period of 2 weeks! so annoying. wish it was all done and gone already. haha.

rubini just invited me out on friday to celebrate someone's birthday. and i just remembered that its my 6th month with him on that day too. hee. maybe i can drag him out on that day.  the chances of that happening is very very slim. but hey, if i dont ask i wont know. haha.

anyway, thats all from me for today. i feel the urge to sneeze really hugely. so i better go. haha! tc and gb!!

xoxo <3 <3

TIRED!

omg!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok. i know i am not supposed to use his name in vain. SORRY!!!

but i am T-TOTALLY TIRED OUT!!!!

i cant believe that my crazy brother made me clean the house. it is practically clean. just a bit messed up. but more or less dust free.

then i had to cook 2 maggi mee for him. lol. my hands are peeling. i mean the skin. and its raw from squeezing the mop and cloth over and over.

if it weren't for something special, i wont even bother. haha!!!

anyway, thanks kor for coming over and cleaning the fan. you saved me from climbing the damn tall and scary ladder! hee.

muah!!! <3 <3

how it flies???

i cant believe that sometimes it seems like the time flies while at other times its just passing so sow. you know what i mean??

haha..i mean..

it seemed only like it was yesterday that i started form6. and now, my dearest seniors are sitting for their stpm exams. and mine is next year. exactly less than a year to go. its freak and scary. hearing from my boyfriend that his exams are tough! and he's in the arts stream. imagine the pressure for the science students!!!!

and yet, it doesnt seem fast enough that 2 weeks not seeing my baby feels like 2 years! goodness.!

life is like that u guess. the time when we want it to go by fast, it wont. when we dont want it to fly by, it will. so ironic dont you think??

anyway, i was just looking at a video taken at the u6a2 class during the class gotong royong! poor 'slaves'. all the l6'ers had to clean the upper 6 classes.

at least the u6a2 class was having fun. me and the twins were tortured. that about sums it all. haha!

oh well...

sweet and bitter memories,
each one treasured like gold.
we'll never forget the times we had,
cuz it was new and old,
new experiences with old seniors!

=)

impossible is nothing.

you stole my heart,

you stalked my dreams,

you took my everything.

you gave me your love,

you supported me with your strength,

you lighted my world.

i trusted you,

i gave you my everything.

i believed in you,

and just wanna offer you this lil thing..

life is hard,

its tough and cold,

but i'm here for you,

giving you the warmth you need.

we have our weaknessess,

we have our strong parts,

but without each other,

we're only halves and halves.

so when you sit for your exams,

i'll be at home,

praying and supporting you always.

dont give up,

dont give in.

just do your best,

amd baby you'll win!

aja aja hwaiting!

hugs!!! muah!!!

xoxo. <3

i cant believe it. omg!!! ok. this is gonna be coded. only you few people will understand.

its just so weird. hmm.. i dunno what to say about it actually.

oh well. i think we're gonna be doing it again?? ryte people??? haha. so maybe i'll tell you one day what it was like.

oohhh..
i learned a few korean verses too!!! but i dont know how to pronounce it. -_______-"

hopefully after stpm, my lovely baby would teach me. hee!!

XOXO <3 <3

loneliness settles in

i try to send you a message,

but yet you ignored it,

i try to tell you through signs,

;but yet you did not understand it.

it hurts to think,

it hurts to imagine,

it hurts to go through it,

it hurts to feel it,

it hurts to talk about it,

it just hurts all the time.

how could you?

i thought you would be there all the time for me.

how could you?

i thought you understood me.

how could you?

i thought you promised never to leave me alone.

how could you?

you broke it and left me to be by myself.

it hurts a lot and yet i have no one to turn to.

it hurts a lot and yet i have no one to talk to.

it hurs a lot and yet there is no one to comfort me.

it hurts a lot and yet there is no one to cheer me up.

it hurts a lot and yet there is no one there for me.

i can only be here alone,

by myself while i hurt.

i grieve because you left me.

left me alone to control myself.

but i wont give up hope.

i will continue to be strong.

i will pray for help,

for god has never forsaken me.

with him i will be able to make it trough,

even if you are not by my side all the time.

tis is my destiny.

AND I WILL BE STRONG AND NOT GIVE UP HOPE!

i love you and i forgive you.

no matter what,

i wont let you go.