sweet date!

i am so so so so happy today. after a whole month. and not being able to spend much time with my beloved boyfried, i finally managed to go out with him today.

IT WAS AWESOME!!!

seriously, i had fun on our date today. we watched the katherine hiegl and josh dummel show, LIFE AS WE KNOW IT. it was sweet and funny. the baby was so cute. and it showed some problems faced by parents when raising a child.

before that we had kfc for lunch. haha. after 3 rounds at the parking lot trying to find a parking space, we went to kfc for lunch. unfortunately, we ended up walking a long way cuz i didnt know that kfc and mcd shifted. sorry baby!!!

during the movie i cuddled with my boyfriend. he was so warm and cuddly. and it was perfect to watch the movie with him there.

after that we went round finding for a perfect couple key chain but couldnt find it. instead we were eating ice cream and i brought him into all the girl's stall like sinma and diva. haha!

all in all, i had a great time with him.our time together is so short alone. i felt very happy too be able to spend some precious moments with him today. cant wait for our skating date after stpm!

sweet baby dear, thank you so much for today. i love you so much! muah!!!

XOXO <3 <3

nothingness..

exams in form 6 is just a simple and legal way of killing students. that way the government gets to kill us but not get caught. seriously. the past few days have been tough. killed after each paper just to be reincarnated to sit for the next. CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!

on the other hand, we have people like yu hong and quek. too smart for us. we suffer. they complain that they'll fail. so what about the rest of us?? we're just dead i guess. lol.

and its weird. he doesnt accept a compliment when we say he's smart. but he says he is handsome. sweat! -_____- how funny! i have to beg to differ. i m on a different opinion. i dont even call my baby dear handsome. and in my opinion, my baby dear is definitely better looking.

haha!!!! i may be biased but the fact is still true. lol.

i guess thats all for now. haha! i am so glad my comp is fixed and i finally got a broadband! can go on9 as often to keep things updated! yay! haha!

anyways, a shout out to my friends and boyfriend who are all sitting for either spm and stpme.

gambate, aja aja hwaiting and all the best!!!!

love ya all esp my baby dear. muah!

XOXO <3

just blogging.

blogging makes me feel happy. i can tell how i feel without anyone commenting too much about it. seriously, i feel no doubts what so ever when i am blogging.

but sometimes, what i blogged about hurts the people around me. i dont write so that this happens. no! i blogged so that i can let go what i feel in me. to release that inner voice in me.

so please dont take offend about what i write here. i only express what i feel. please dont misunderstand. k???

i love all of you. and i wont offend you on purpose.

love ya all. love especially too my dearest baby. muah!

XOXO <3 <3 <3

cumbersomeness and unfairness!

i wonder why it is so unfair to me?

honestly, my dad scolds me for calling someone stupid on fb even though i did not state the person's name. and yet he was angry at me.


but its not fair. why when my sister calls me a bitch or uses the f-word in front of him, he doesnt scold her?


and in fact, i lernt it from him anyway. he's always scolding someone by using the f-word and calling them bitches and bastards. at least i only use stupid. i find it really unfair.


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and then when i told him playfully that my boyfriend didnt feed me yesterday for lunch. do ou know what he replied? he told me "its your fault. who ask you so busy kiss and hug him? why you so stupid till didnt ask him for lucnh?"


wth??!!!!


i'm his daughter for crying out loud. what does he think i am? does he think that i only spend time with my boyfriend by kissing and hugging him??? even my mum thought it was a bit stupid of him to comment like that.


i feel so upset and to quote lee yang yi, i feel cumbersome by what my dad has said. he doesnt realise that he has hurt my feelings.

dear lord, help me to forgive my father even though he has hurt me. give me the strength so that i do not take offend towarsd him. help him see that i am not what he thinks i am. guide me my lord, so that what i do, is what seems right. i pray in your precious name.

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i dont know if i'll ever forget what he said to me. but i know i love my boyfriend a lot and we dont spend our time together by kissing and hugging. thats not who we are.


he takes care of me and how i feel. and for that, my love for him can only grow.

my sweet baby dearest, you're all i want, i ever needed and my everything. love you always!


XOXO. <3 <3 <3

fun and laughters.

short entry. went to sayang's hse. influenced his aunty to do her nail polish with different colours like mine. awesome!

went out with ken and boon lye too. so funny la these 3 bros. can give you headaches and stomach pains with their crazy antics.

spent time with my sayang was the best time. love you sweet sayang. glad you enjoyed today and felt happy.

love you always! muah!!!!!!!

xoxo. <3 <3 <3

grow up!

its time you grew up gal! stop being like a bitchy small kid. the world isnt about you only.

i'm sick and tires of picking up you slack. i get into so much of trouble because of you. its time you change.

i am not your slave nor am i going to put up with it any longer. in front of others you act like a good kid. but behind closed doors, your true colours appear. stop being so bossy. change your attitude.

you complain that your friends bitch about you but you never realise that you guve them the reason to talk bad.

if only you would change then it wont be bad like this.

grow up girl. be your age.

dear god, please help her to change. i cant cope with it any longer. i want my family to be happy. please help us all. guide us in your light and show us the right path. give us the strength to change.

i pray in your name.. help us you humble servants.

just change girl.

lost???

what do you do when you feel like you're failing? what do you when circumstances put you in the opposite direction from what you were hoping for?

sometimes i find it hard to know what i want. one minute its this and the next is that. so what am i really looking for???

do you really have a part of you that wants me to leave? i am scared to find out. i dont want to dwell on it anymore. its time to grow up.

there is only two choices. if you ever want me to leave then dont hesitate to tell me. i will do you a favour even if it hurts me. i may not want it to happen and i hope it never will.

life is never easy but its time i act my age. i am not going to ponder on this any longer. you are all that matters. i accept you for who you are. i will try to live with that from now on. i may notmlike it but i love you enough to accept it.

dear god, help me to look at the positive side of him. no one is ever perfect except for you. help me to forgive him when what he does makes me sad. for i myself have my own faults. help me to change first if i want him to change. lord, as your humble servant, i ask for your help.

love you always my sweet love. i forgive you. you are the only person and thing that matters.

xoxo. <3