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hello!!!!

2011-08-28T09:18:00.000-07:00

omg! its been so long since i was here. hehe. kinda miss bein here. sorry blog! i have tumblr know till i forgot about you! :(

dun hate me k?

lol.. haiz.. i ws just reading my previous entries on this blog. and i came across 1 where i was telling that he sorta proposed to me...
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its never gonna happen for real now. we broke up about 6 days ago. ouch! it hurts like crazy. i cried a lot. but hey, im moving on. i feel alone but i know that my friends and family are there for me.

this pat week has been really down for m. even my school stuff. but thank and praise god, i am ok. and thats what matters.

hey! i'll be back ok? gotta go now. see ya! i'll be back soon! i'll be back! 2pm! hehe! :)

reblogged....

2010-12-18T01:10:00.001-08:00

hey.. tis is my new blog site.. so ya.. tis is just goin stale. so check out the new bloggie k?? i'll link it. http://crazinessunlimited.tumblr.com/

Ghost Caught on Video (HD)

2010-12-06T07:04:00.001-08:00

Ghost Caught on Video (HD)

2010-12-06T07:04:00.000-08:00

of nothingness and ghosts??

2010-12-06T06:56:00.000-08:00

have you ever met a ghost?? its creepy and scary. i saw 1 when i was in form 4. me and my team mates from ot2008!

did you ever wonder what you would do if you ever met 1??? haha! not to scare you more but its no fun if i dont write about some fun stuff right?? i'll probably bore all of you if i only talk about my personal life! ahaha..

so i'll leave you a video. maybe. hopefully you enjoy it!

my sis will kill me if she saw me doing this. hee.

a many of my randomness..

2010-12-05T06:22:00.000-08:00

wow.. i am just so sleepy. haha.. awesome as yesterday was(my bro's lil surprise bday party), i only went to sleep at 3. i wasted half of today by sleepin. i look like a PANDA!!! seriously. the bags under my sweet innocent eyes *ahem ahem* is just so obvious!!!

GONE!!!

i cant wait for this tuesday.finally get to see my lil hubby. haha. after 3 torturing weeks. oohhh.. haha. its kinda funny. he sorta... nvm. haha.. i'll tell ya all about it later. hee! :)

i cant believe my 2 nephews are so cute and amazingly adorably sweet! especially tristan. his eyes is big! i wanna hold him all the time.. and keep him if possible. :P

ok.. this is what i wanted to say. he sorta proposed to me! haha. it was all so funny. but oh well. i love him! haha.

XOXO <3 <3

missing sickness!

2010-11-30T02:31:00.000-08:00

ok. i am sick with the worst flu of this year... or maybe the second half of the year. i am so seriously suffering! hate it when i am sick with flu! ugh!!!!

some of you may be asking, am i love sick?? after all i havent seen him for quite awhile.. the answer is no! ok. i maybe missing him like a lot a lot. but i am sick because of jennifer. she passed me her flu virus on sunday! its horrible. and to top it off.. well. i'm having a bloody month. =.=" it sucks!

but i am coping. hee. at least i am not that weak like how he calls me. i mean, i am recovering already. pretty fast since my flu always lasts at least 3-4 days.

and come to think of it. he only has 2 days left of exam. stretched over a period of 2 weeks! so annoying. wish it was all done and gone already. haha.

rubini just invited me out on friday to celebrate someone's birthday. and i just remembered that its my 6th month with him on that day too. hee. maybe i can drag him out on that day. the chances of that happening is very very slim. but hey, if i dont ask i wont know. haha.

anyway, thats all from me for today. i feel the urge to sneeze really hugely. so i better go. haha! tc and gb!!

xoxo <3 <3

TIRED!

2010-11-28T23:45:00.000-08:00

omg!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok. i know i am not supposed to use his name in vain. SORRY!!!

but i am T-TOTALLY TIRED OUT!!!!

i cant believe that my crazy brother made me clean the house. it is practically clean. just a bit messed up. but more or less dust free.

then i had to cook 2 maggi mee for him. lol. my hands are peeling. i mean the skin. and its raw from squeezing the mop and cloth over and over.

if it weren't for something special, i wont even bother. haha!!!

anyway, thanks kor for coming over and cleaning the fan. you saved me from climbing the damn tall and scary ladder! hee.

muah!!! <3 <3

how it flies???

2010-11-27T06:18:00.000-08:00

i cant believe that sometimes it seems like the time flies while at other times its just passing so sow. you know what i mean??

haha..i mean..

it seemed only like it was yesterday that i started form6. and now, my dearest seniors are sitting for their stpm exams. and mine is next year. exactly less than a year to go. its freak and scary. hearing from my boyfriend that his exams are tough! and he's in the arts stream. imagine the pressure for the science students!!!!

and yet, it doesnt seem fast enough that 2 weeks not seeing my baby feels like 2 years! goodness.!

life is like that u guess. the time when we want it to go by fast, it wont. when we dont want it to fly by, it will. so ironic dont you think??

anyway, i was just looking at a video taken at the u6a2 class during the class gotong royong! poor 'slaves'. all the l6'ers had to clean the upper 6 classes.

at least the u6a2 class was having fun. me and the twins were tortured. that about sums it all. haha!

oh well...

sweet and bitter memories,
each one treasured like gold.
we'll never forget the times we had,
cuz it was new and old,
new experiences with old seniors!

=)

impossible is nothing.

2010-11-21T05:24:00.000-08:00

you stole my heart,

you stalked my dreams,

you took my everything.

you gave me your love,

you supported me with your strength,

you lighted my world.

i trusted you,

i gave you my everything.

i believed in you,

and just wanna offer you this lil thing..

life is hard,

its tough and cold,

but i'm here for you,

giving you the warmth you need.

we have our weaknessess,

we have our strong parts,

but without each other,

we're only halves and halves.

so when you sit for your exams,

i'll be at home,

praying and supporting you always.

dont give up,

dont give in.

just do your best,

amd baby you'll win!

aja aja hwaiting!

hugs!!! muah!!!

xoxo. <3

2010-11-17T02:33:00.000-08:00

i cant believe it. omg!!! ok. this is gonna be coded. only you few people will understand.

its just so weird. hmm.. i dunno what to say about it actually.

oh well. i think we're gonna be doing it again?? ryte people??? haha. so maybe i'll tell you one day what it was like.

oohhh..
i learned a few korean verses too!!! but i dont know how to pronounce it. -_______-"

hopefully after stpm, my lovely baby would teach me. hee!!

XOXO <3 <3

loneliness settles in

2010-11-12T22:14:00.000-08:00

i try to send you a message,

but yet you ignored it,

i try to tell you through signs,

;but yet you did not understand it.

it hurts to think,

it hurts to imagine,

it hurts to go through it,

it hurts to feel it,

it hurts to talk about it,

it just hurts all the time.

how could you?

i thought you would be there all the time for me.

how could you?

i thought you understood me.

how could you?

i thought you promised never to leave me alone.

how could you?

you broke it and left me to be by myself.

it hurts a lot and yet i have no one to turn to.

it hurts a lot and yet i have no one to talk to.

it hurs a lot and yet there is no one to comfort me.

it hurts a lot and yet there is no one to cheer me up.

it hurts a lot and yet there is no one there for me.

i can only be here alone,

by myself while i hurt.

i grieve because you left me.

left me alone to control myself.

but i wont give up hope.

i will continue to be strong.

i will pray for help,

for god has never forsaken me.

with him i will be able to make it trough,

even if you are not by my side all the time.

tis is my destiny.

AND I WILL BE STRONG AND NOT GIVE UP HOPE!

i love you and i forgive you.

no matter what,

i wont let you go.

trying to forget.

2010-11-12T19:53:00.000-08:00

i simply dont understand. i try to see things from your view. i try to be patient. but i cant.

i felt so hurt yet i kept it to myself and tried to comfort you. i did my best to bring that cheer back into your eyes. but i failed.

truly, i find it hard to forgive what has happened. but my love for you is too strong. i realise that you mean more than the world to me. and i slowly let it fade away. all that pain that kept me awake the whole night. all the things that you said to me. its all finally forgiven if not forgotten.

i simply cant face it anymore. i just want us to be happy. forever together. whatever that has happened is simply the past now. it is time i let go..

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oh my sweet jesus. you're the only perfect person. we are just human. please give me the strength and will to forgive others just as you have forgiven us for our sins. you are ebver mercifull. i pray that i will be more like you. bless us both so that we will always face the trials ahead together. may our relationship be long and fruitful as i cannot live without him. i pray in your most holy and precious name. amen.

true to youself and me.

2010-11-11T05:52:00.000-08:00

i am so happy and relieved and overjoyed because you are true to me. thank you baby.

baby,

you are just so great,

anything you do is for me,

without you in my life,

i cant imagine what it would be like for me.

baby,

you light up my life and shine the way for me,

even in my darkness you never left me,

like a meteor shooting across the sky,

you shot through my life and brightened it everyday.

baby,

life isnt perfect and neither are we,

but together we can create the best memories,

thank you for always being there by me,

together forever, you and me.

its all forgiven and forgotten

2010-11-09T05:18:00.000-08:00

many times we tend to have a slip of the tongue. though not on purpose it can hurt the other party.

i know i promised not to say that word ever again. but i was upset and disappointed. hence, i uttered it by accident. its not an excuse but i didnt mean it. as it turned out, it nearly ruined the whole afternoon.

on the upside, we actually talked about how we felt. its not often that we talk when we have an argument or misunderstanding. like the saying goes, every cloud has its silver lining. it showed that we were growing together. we are commmunicating.

at the station, it was nice to be with you. poking was fun fun fun! hee.

either ways, whatever that has happened, baby i am sorry. and i forgive you too. its all FORGIVEN AND FORGOTTEN.

dear god, thank you for your guidance in my relationship. i pray that you'll help me to be a better person. continue to bless me and him so that we will grow stronger in our love. help us to forgive one another. amen.

xoxo <3 <3

past, present and future.

2010-11-06T06:02:00.000-07:00

its nice to be able to talk about the past. without having fights and arguments. though it certainly changed my impression a little.

yet no one is perfect. not even me.

so its ok. the past is to teach you. learn from it but dont dwell upon it.live in the present. its called present cause it is a gift each day that you live. look forward to the future as it gives you a reason to go on fighting and to do your best.

dear god, i pray that you will give me the courage, strength and wisdom as i take each step. lead me to the right path as i want to be closer to you each day. bless my relationships with my friends and family. and with my special beloved. thank you god for everything that you have given to me. amen.

love you always my dear and i hope you'll always love me too.

XOXO. <3 <3

Because You Loved Me - Celine Dion [Lyrics]

2010-11-04T05:44:00.000-07:00

last day.

2010-11-04T05:39:00.000-07:00

yesterday..

its my 5th month with my sayang. and the last day i spent with him. till after his stpm.

it was pretty sweet. we sangs songs, watched full house and just plain hanged out. we tried not to think about the coming month. where we wont be able to see each other.

well, its just a few weeks. but i am still gonna miss him.

love you sayang. study hard and good luck. AJA AJA HWAITING!

XOXO <3

i'm sorry!

2010-11-02T07:29:00.000-07:00

my dear baby,

I AM SUPER SORRY!

i didnt mean to say that i'll kill you. dont be hurt or upset with me already k? small girl girl is very SORRY!

love you always! and happy 5th month! muahMUAH!

xoxo <3

sweet date!

2010-10-30T06:33:00.000-07:00

i am so so so so happy today. after a whole month. and not being able to spend much time with my beloved boyfried, i finally managed to go out with him today.

IT WAS AWESOME!!!

seriously, i had fun on our date today. we watched the katherine hiegl and josh dummel show, LIFE AS WE KNOW IT. it was sweet and funny. the baby was so cute. and it showed some problems faced by parents when raising a child.

before that we had kfc for lunch. haha. after 3 rounds at the parking lot trying to find a parking space, we went to kfc for lunch. unfortunately, we ended up walking a long way cuz i didnt know that kfc and mcd shifted. sorry baby!!!

during the movie i cuddled with my boyfriend. he was so warm and cuddly. and it was perfect to watch the movie with him there.

after that we went round finding for a perfect couple key chain but couldnt find it. instead we were eating ice cream and i brought him into all the girl's stall like sinma and diva. haha!

all in all, i had a great time with him.our time together is so short alone. i felt very happy too be able to spend some precious moments with him today. cant wait for our skating date after stpm!

sweet baby dear, thank you so much for today. i love you so much! muah!!!

XOXO <3 <3

nothingness..

2010-10-28T07:03:00.000-07:00

exams in form 6 is just a simple and legal way of killing students. that way the government gets to kill us but not get caught. seriously. the past few days have been tough. killed after each paper just to be reincarnated to sit for the next. CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!

on the other hand, we have people like yu hong and quek. too smart for us. we suffer. they complain that they'll fail. so what about the rest of us?? we're just dead i guess. lol.

and its weird. he doesnt accept a compliment when we say he's smart. but he says he is handsome. sweat! -_____- how funny! i have to beg to differ. i m on a different opinion. i dont even call my baby dear handsome. and in my opinion, my baby dear is definitely better looking.

haha!!!! i may be biased but the fact is still true. lol.

i guess thats all for now. haha! i am so glad my comp is fixed and i finally got a broadband! can go on9 as often to keep things updated! yay! haha!

anyways, a shout out to my friends and boyfriend who are all sitting for either spm and stpme.

gambate, aja aja hwaiting and all the best!!!!

love ya all esp my baby dear. muah!

XOXO <3

just blogging.

2010-10-24T06:19:00.000-07:00

blogging makes me feel happy. i can tell how i feel without anyone commenting too much about it. seriously, i feel no doubts what so ever when i am blogging.

but sometimes, what i blogged about hurts the people around me. i dont write so that this happens. no! i blogged so that i can let go what i feel in me. to release that inner voice in me.

so please dont take offend about what i write here. i only express what i feel. please dont misunderstand. k???

i love all of you. and i wont offend you on purpose.

love ya all. love especially too my dearest baby. muah!

XOXO <3 <3 <3

cumbersomeness and unfairness!

2010-10-23T07:35:00.000-07:00

i wonder why it is so unfair to me?

honestly, my dad scolds me for calling someone stupid on fb even though i did not state the person's name. and yet he was angry at me.

but its not fair. why when my sister calls me a bitch or uses the f-word in front of him, he doesnt scold her?

and in fact, i lernt it from him anyway. he's always scolding someone by using the f-word and calling them bitches and bastards. at least i only use stupid. i find it really unfair.

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and then when i told him playfully that my boyfriend didnt feed me yesterday for lunch. do ou know what he replied? he told me "its your fault. who ask you so busy kiss and hug him? why you so stupid till didnt ask him for lucnh?"

wth??!!!!

i'm his daughter for crying out loud. what does he think i am? does he think that i only spend time with my boyfriend by kissing and hugging him??? even my mum thought it was a bit stupid of him to comment like that.

i feel so upset and to quote lee yang yi, i feel cumbersome by what my dad has said. he doesnt realise that he has hurt my feelings.

dear lord, help me to forgive my father even though he has hurt me. give me the strength so that i do not take offend towarsd him. help him see that i am not what he thinks i am. guide me my lord, so that what i do, is what seems right. i pray in your precious name.

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i dont know if i'll ever forget what he said to me. but i know i love my boyfriend a lot and we dont spend our time together by kissing and hugging. thats not who we are.

he takes care of me and how i feel. and for that, my love for him can only grow.

my sweet baby dearest, you're all i want, i ever needed and my everything. love you always!

XOXO. <3 <3 <3

fun and laughters.

2010-10-22T06:14:00.000-07:00

short entry. went to sayang's hse. influenced his aunty to do her nail polish with different colours like mine. awesome!

went out with ken and boon lye too. so funny la these 3 bros. can give you headaches and stomach pains with their crazy antics.

spent time with my sayang was the best time. love you sweet sayang. glad you enjoyed today and felt happy.

love you always! muah!!!!!!!

xoxo. <3 <3 <3

grow up!

2010-10-21T06:15:00.000-07:00

its time you grew up gal! stop being like a bitchy small kid. the world isnt about you only.

i'm sick and tires of picking up you slack. i get into so much of trouble because of you. its time you change.

i am not your slave nor am i going to put up with it any longer. in front of others you act like a good kid. but behind closed doors, your true colours appear. stop being so bossy. change your attitude.

you complain that your friends bitch about you but you never realise that you guve them the reason to talk bad.

if only you would change then it wont be bad like this.

grow up girl. be your age.

dear god, please help her to change. i cant cope with it any longer. i want my family to be happy. please help us all. guide us in your light and show us the right path. give us the strength to change.

i pray in your name.. help us you humble servants.

just change girl.

lost???

2010-10-20T07:40:00.000-07:00

what do you do when you feel like you're failing? what do you when circumstances put you in the opposite direction from what you were hoping for?

sometimes i find it hard to know what i want. one minute its this and the next is that. so what am i really looking for???

do you really have a part of you that wants me to leave? i am scared to find out. i dont want to dwell on it anymore. its time to grow up.

there is only two choices. if you ever want me to leave then dont hesitate to tell me. i will do you a favour even if it hurts me. i may not want it to happen and i hope it never will.

life is never easy but its time i act my age. i am not going to ponder on this any longer. you are all that matters. i accept you for who you are. i will try to live with that from now on. i may notmlike it but i love you enough to accept it.

dear god, help me to look at the positive side of him. no one is ever perfect except for you. help me to forgive him when what he does makes me sad. for i myself have my own faults. help me to change first if i want him to change. lord, as your humble servant, i ask for your help.

love you always my sweet love. i forgive you. you are the only person and thing that matters.

xoxo. <3

promises.

2010-10-18T07:26:00.000-07:00

what is it about you that makes me keep forgiving you even though you keep breaking the small promises that you make to me?

i find it hard now a days to trust what you promise me because you hardly ever keep those promises.

what if one day you break the biggest and most important promise that you made to me? will i be able yo forgive you then? i am afraid of what the future holds for us. baby, i can only try to keep believing in your promises and hope that you will never break the most important.

i love you always my baby deares. MUAH!

XOXO <3

of make ups and my brother.

2010-10-16T06:13:00.000-07:00

so.. my big crazy brother came over to reprograme and reinstall some things on my desktop today. and when he just started, i was just sitting down and doin my toenails. its blue and black. preeetyyyyy.. hee.. and then i asked my brother if he wanted me to do his nails too. haha! and he told me to get lost.

-____________-

and then we were talking about me being vain and my sister brought up the topic about make up. can you believe it???!!!

it reminded us of when we were small. because...

my brother used to put my mums make up on himself!!! haha. we were really mischievous and young i guess. and to complete his look, he would also use my mums jewellery.

isnt he cute?? haha.

I LOVE YOU KOR KOR! <3

lil things that are BIG

2010-10-12T06:07:00.000-07:00

wow. i never knew my boyfriend is so sweet!! haha. ok. even though the flowers were from his cousin's wedding, i dont care! even though my mum says he isnt sincere, i dont care! i still loved it very much and the roses are still very much sweet smelling.

ROSES ARE RED,
VIOLETS ARE BLUE,
SUGAR IS SWEET,
AND SO ARE YOU!!

thanks for the flowers my dear. i will always treasure it even after it has died.

...

so you see, giving flowers may seem outdated to some, but i think it is a very special gesture when a boy gives a girl flowers.

different flowers have different meanings. and roses are considered the romance flowers. red and white. what a perfect combination.!

so i am very happy my boyfriend gave me the flowers although he didnt exactly buy it. it shows that he really loves and cares for me!

p.s. i did guessed what it was when he told me he had a surprise for me. haha!

THANK YOU SO MUCH MY LOVE!!! MUAH!!

LOVE YOU ALWAYS.
XOXO <3

missing people!

2010-10-10T05:10:00.000-07:00

what a day! its the 10 of 1o year 10. and yet i spent it sleeping, church and internet. perfectly the same as every other week.

after sundayy school classes (the kids were driving me crazy! and yet i still love them lots. haha!), me, and my two close friends and bestie from 08 team walked all the way to giant. it took us 30mins to reach our destination. thanks to my dad who didnt want to fetch us, and brandon who had to rush off to klang.. haha! but it was fun walking with the girls. it seemed that we were the only ones that still remained closed after our stint in rally 08.

and now, i am missing my dear sweet boyfriend! hmmm. hope he's having fun at his cousin's wedding. i hope can see him tomorrow! haha! love you my sweet!

thats all for this 10/10/10 day. what a boring day! i miss everyone!

XOXO <3

of missing and thinking.

2010-10-09T03:32:00.000-07:00

i wonder..

there is just so many things that goes through my mind everyday. and yet, many of it are insignificant to my life.

for exaample..

what are you thinking gurl? after 3 years of harbouring so much love for him, you're giving up in just a lil over 2 months? you claimed to love him, made me unsecure when i wasnt with him and then you gave him up. i guess in a way i could understand as you were going through so much paain. believe me when i say i've been through it all. but is it really true that you're over him? ask youself this and search for the answer deep within your heart.

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see what i mean by thinking things that does not relate to me?

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thats only half of what i go through. even though she says that she says she's over him, i cant help feeling that all she's doing is only denying the fact. call it a sixth sense or a lady's intiution, but the feeling is strong. it just wont go away.

hmmm.. maybe there's just something wrong with me. to be honest, even after 4 amazing months with him, i dont know where i stand in his life. i could list number of things that seems more important than me even though he denies it. and i even still feel jealous. i know that he loves me more than anything. yet, i am unsure of my hold on him. what if he leaves me one day???

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and to be honest, i wished i could see him on this sunday. at first i was to teman him at his cousins wedding. but because he wasnt coming back to pj.. that meant i wouldnt be seeing him till tuesday. if only it were possible to see him i wouldnt be feeling this pathetic. i cant even text him now because he has no credit to reply. it hurts though that he has the time to be online but not enough time to reload. i miss him a lot.

i guess this is what it really feels like to be head over heels in love. seriously, i cant seem to breathe right without hin by my side.

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there is one sun, one moon, many stars and galaxies, and one universe,
yet none of this can compare to how much i love you
or how much you mean to me.

upon the stars i pray that you'll always be safe,
upon the moon, i hope that i am the light in your darkness,
upon the sun i pray that you'll shine brightly with happiness,
upon everything else, i pray that we'll always be together forever.

xoxo <3

6lympics game

2010-09-25T07:35:00.000-07:00

so tiring!!! that was the overall feeling of every playes today. especially the science 2 students. we were beyond tired already and ready to faint! but we gave our all and although we lost, we had fun.

a shout out to a few people though...

yu hong: you are a dangerous player when it comes to handball. no one can stop you from goaling man!
quek: quek quek... my thigh hurt\s thanks to you! lol.. please dont injure me anymore k??? look before you kick t:he ball!
vishal: you are THE great WALL of SAS!! its impossible to aim and shoot during netball since you're towerin over me!! -____-"
krystal: haha! slamming into me.. haha! lucky it didnt hurt. but good game on winning!
yang yi: first you had to tower in front of me and steal all my passes from my teammates. then you even sat on me!! how could you???? lol... >.<

oh well.. the games today was still pretty fun and i enjoyed myself. so thanks everyone for coming and playing! i <3 you guys science 2!!!

XOXO,,

i was ryte..

2010-09-22T07:19:00.000-07:00

so i predicted on sunday night that i was going to be doom on monday. and i was RIGHT!

after recess we had chemistry and we got scolding from pn... well, you know who la. hmmm..

and i am glad that my r&d partners are my and kj.. fuh.. thats such a relieve.

anyways, here's some ways to say i love you in a few different languages..

bm: saya cinta kamu
eng: i love you
chinese: wor ai ni
tamil: ni assingamma irruke
korean: saranghaeyo
japanese:aishiteru
german: ich liebe dich
spanish: te amol
french: jetaime te amor

...

so go and tell your loved ones that you love them in these languages. HAVE FUN!

XOXO <3

thru hard times..

2010-09-20T06:59:00.001-07:00

through the hard times that we face, always turn to god. seek guidance from him and he will lead you.

remember your friends too. true and loyal friends will always help you when you are in need.

your family too will always be there to support and encourage you on. so dont worry.

and most of all, seek comfort in you love one. if he/she loves you, they will always be there for you..

hwaiting baby dear!

muah! xoxo.. <3

Lincoln Brewster - Love the Lord

2010-09-19T07:03:00.000-07:00

its TIME!!

2010-09-19T07:01:00.000-07:00

so, the upper 6ers are all going to start their trial exams this monday. which is tomorrow. good luck to all them!! jia you! and HWAITING!!

and the standard 6ers are having their upsr exams too. good luck kids! GAMBATE!

it seems that as the year draws closer to an end, all the exams are coming. year after year we go through this. even my finals are just around the corner. a little over 3 weeks more.

time to really settle down and start revising everything. oh!!! it sucks to have to sit for exams. god help us all...

...

but before my finals is the 6olympics. it starts this coming saturday. my class has the least students. hence, we'll all be playing one game after another. good luck to the l6s2 class. we can do it!!

...

life is very stress right now. and i can only imagine what it will be like next year. even my dear darling is scaring me when he says "just wait till next year..". now to quote him: GONE LA!!

but i know it will be okay. it will work out. as long as i do my best and study from today. plus, god is there to help me. as long as i need him and seek guidance from him, i know i can do it!

so.. last words for now..

GOOD LUCK TO ALL OF YOU SITTING FOR EXAMS. YOU CAN DO IT!!! JIA YOU, HWAITING, GAMBATE and SEMOGA BERJAYA!!

p.s. just a side note, sayang, dont worry too much k? just pray before the exams and do your best. dont panic and keep calm. i believe in you dear! MUAH!!! xoxo!!! <3

That Should Be Me (Cover) by AJ Rafael & Albert Posis w/ Lyrics & Download

2010-09-17T07:06:00.000-07:00

IYAZ - Replay Cover (JRA, AJ Rafael, Andrew Garcia)

2010-09-17T06:55:00.000-07:00

blessings in disguise.

2010-09-17T06:46:00.000-07:00

life has its ups and downs. but as long as god is with me, i will continue to stand strong.

someone once told me that life will always be like a mountain. it will go up and that is difficult. but when it comes down, the joy and fun we have!

so no matter what happens in life, i will always be happy. nothing else matters but keeping the faith in HIM and to continue loving those who deserve my love.

THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERYTHING.

AND I LOVE ALL OF YOU. ESPECIALLY MY FAMILY, CHURCH FRIENDS AND MY LOVE..

Buckcherry-Sorry Lyrics

2010-09-16T02:08:00.000-07:00

Michael W. Smith & Amy Grant - Friends are friends Forever

2010-09-16T01:33:00.000-07:00

pAiN iN mY HeArT(LyRicS)--bY:ArnEL piNedA and ZOo

2010-09-16T01:21:00.000-07:00

trying to find a place

2010-09-16T01:18:00.000-07:00

we are just puzzle pieces. each part of our life is broken into many pieces of a perfect puzzle. when we mange to fit it all together, only then can we see the full picture.

i am still trying to fit mine together.

this past few weeks have proven to be a hard time for me. the past month itself has me thinking and rethinking, what is it that life wants from me? i am just a simple girl that dreams of a happily ever after.

that handphone case was the beginning of the end for me. 3 months of happiness, was that all i get? just 3 months?

first, i lost my sister in school. i cared for her. but i guess that wasnt enough for her. the lost of her handphone and replacing it was more important than me. i was just an insignificant person in her life. nothing more than just a junior to her. how much it hurted when she accused me, how much i cried that she'll come back, how much pain i hid from everyone? only god knows how much i cry to myself silently at night.

and if that wasnt enough. life it seemed was not satisfied with causing me that much grieve already.

it next decided to take my closest friends in school. away from me.. i still remember those first few weeks when we started form 6. how me and them were angry because we didnt get the school that we wanted. but as time moved on, and we each got to know the other students, we came to love the school and our new friends. we could not bear to leave. through it all, we remained the tightest and closest of friends.

but that all changed after that incident. i still remember how they told me that they didnt want tcertain peoople to come to that school because they couldnt stand them. how much that changes. it seems now, they prefer to hang with these people that they could not stand in the beginning. i've been pushed to the back. becoming a stranger to them. i can only wonder what has changed. even as the gained new friends, no one wants to accept me any more.

SO LONELY..

now.. life seems to try its best to take the person i love away from me too. the amount of times we've argued in the past month itself.. it drains me till i am so tired. it makes me feel like giving up all over again. maybe its my attitude that drives people away from me. especially the ones that i lov. i try to chsnge, but no matter what i do, it seems to be wrong.

IF ONLY I COULD GIVE UP..

but no. i wont. i made a promise to never leave him. and by giving up means i am breking that promise. plus, taking one's life is considered a sin. a big and unforgivable sin..

so here i am. back at square 1. once again trying to cope with wht life has given me. doing my best to just continue breathing, to continue being strong.

thank god he is always there for me. without him, i wouldnt have lived this long..

Power of Your Love

2010-09-15T06:46:00.000-07:00

My Savior My God By Aaron Shust

2010-09-15T06:36:00.000-07:00

Bible Verse With Music - Lord, keep my heart always true to You

2010-09-15T06:30:00.000-07:00

lost..

2010-09-15T06:22:00.000-07:00

i feel lost when i am in school now.

i dont feel as if i belong there anymore. isolated from them. what am i doing there? why is this happening to me? what did i do wrong?

i call them my friends but now, they treat me as if i dont exist any more.
is this what i have to face until i am done with form 6 next year?

everything changed ever since that incident. i lost my sister in school. and slowly, it seems like i lost my closest friends too. maybe i am being paranoid. but that is what it feels like.

i used to sit with all of you during our muet classes but now, i am pushed away to the back. i used to share with all of you about what i was facing, but now none of you are there anymore.

remember the last holidays how we spent time together? now it seems that there are oothers that you go out with while i am left out. none of you bothered to even invite me. even during recess i am left alone. instead, i can only hang out with my bf and his friends. what happened to all of you? what did i do to earn this?

what ever i did to you, i am sorry. please come back to me. dont lave me alone anymore. i dont want to face this loneliness any longer. if you are truly my friends.. please treat me well like how you used to.

i miss all of you so much..

life goes on.

2010-09-12T06:37:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. we've had our differences. it is not easy. what you think and what i think is different. yet, we still try to work it out.

i know it is hard to accept me and forgive me after getting hurt time and time again. but i am doing my best and i am changing who i am a little everyday.

JUST FOR YOU...

...

but all things said and done, i just want you to know that i am sorry for everything.

LOVE YOU ALWAYS...

of hurts and sweetness...

2010-09-10T07:25:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wonder...

what does life really want from me?? will it tell me or must i continue to go with the flow?

i am sick and tired of all the hardships i've faced in life. evrytime i think back of what i went through in the past years, i just want to cry and give up.

but god wouldnt let me give up. he continued to give me the strength and support i needed. he helped me back onto my feet and said to me, "jacq, i am always with you. dont lose hope."

as time passes by, my wounds more or less heaked. yet, i cant help feeling hurt even now.

take for instance, that special someone. i love him with alll my heart and soul. if possible, i want him to be the last. but i cant help having doubts. i mean.. we've been through so much pain together. yes i do admit that it is mostly my fault. yet..

he never realised it when something he does hurts my feelings. i'm not known to say out loud how i feel. even my parents know that. i would always keep it in me. but sometimes... its just so hard.

he says that i shouldnt get emo or be sad when i dont get to see him and spend time with him. because it will affect him. so, am i suppose to bottle up these feelings in me always then? am i supposed to only show happiness? i mean, since being emo and sad is considered hurting him, then what am i to do? i dont have a choice but to always be happy so that i'll never hurt him? i dont wanna hurt him..

then there's the issue of me being demanding. hell, i may be demanding, but what about him? when i dont get something done like how he wants it, he will start being upset and 'merajuk' with me. for instance, he wanted a poem and at first he said i could give it to him on friday. then the next day in school he says that he wants it now! or he will merajuk..

i'm not a superwoman. yet because i want him to be happy, i spend my two periods of physics class, writing 4 pages of the poem. it really added some stress on me at that point. but i did it for someone i love...

yes, life is full of sweetness to with him. he takes care of me and gets me what i want to. he is always there when i need him. he is almost perfect in every sense. thats why i love him. because he loves me too.

i just wish that sometimes, he understands how i feel to. to accept me for who i am too. i do want to change so that he will be happy with me.

but i will always accept him for who he is. even if he hurts me a thousand times, i will continue to love him. my love for him would never waver even a little no matter what he does to me. after all, thats what loving some one is all about. to accept everything about the person and forgiving them even if they hurt us..

live life to the fullest! :)

2010-09-10T06:49:00.000-07:00

so.. hey peeps!!

live life to the fullest. first up is wishing all my malay friends SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

next on my list is talking about my sister. haha! yesterday we were playing badminton in front of my house and this lady was walking past us.when my sister tried to return my shot, she hit the shuttle. AND IT HIT THE LADY'S HEAD BY ACCIDENT!!!! hahahaha!!! it was so funny. we apologized to the lady but we couldnt stop laughing after that. the best part was, my sister could hardly stop laughing that she ended up sitting on the road! sweat case. HAHA!!!

and then today my dearest big baby came over to my house. and we played badminton. GOODNESS! he really made me exercise. i know he's a pro but i am only an amateur! did he have to play well and make me run all over the place??? lol. not enough that he went and hit the shuttle until it hit my HEAD! OUCH!!!!

oh well.. at least i enjoyed playing it still. but it will be his first and last time playing with me. hee..

guess thats all for now.

tc and gb!!

XOXO <3

to live my life

2010-09-07T07:27:00.000-07:00

to live my life, you've gotta be strong. if not, you might as well just give up.

it is never easy to live your life. hell, everyone has their own problems right? but what the f***ing is wrong with this world??

is it too much to want a happy ever after?
is it too much to even ask for a simple life without stress?

i often questioned god about the misgivings in my life. i mean, life wasnt ever easy on me. i think i've had more sadness and tears in my life. i even wanted to run away or commit suicide.

but then, i decided to give god a chance. i let him into my life and let him guide me. the wonders and miracles he has done for me!

i realised that god had never forsaked me. it was me that had forsaken him. i took him for granted yet he never failed to be by my side.
for that i can only thank him. for always loving me and taking care of me. for having mercy on me and forgiving my sins.

god, YOU ARE TRULY WONDERFUL AND I LOVE YOU.

yes, my life is far from perfect. even now i face problems in school, in my relationship and at home. but as long as i continue to ask for his guidance, he will help me thriough it all.

the many trials in life is set for us to test us. the more we overcome, the stronger we get. the better we become. so do not lose hope.

to someone very special to my heart,

i know you're going through a difficult time. yes it is stressful especially when you're having a major exam in just less than 3 months. but do not be sad. everyone of us who leves you are suppporting you. dont give up because we are here to help you.

have faith in yourself. talk to us when you think you cant cope anymore. we'll give you our strength so that you may carry on with this fight.

i am here always for you. dont push me aside because i wont leave you to handle this by yourself. i love you always.

most importantly, pray to god for help and guidance. he is always there for you if you'll just let him in.

take care and focus baby dear.

JIA YOU!! GAMBATE!! GOOD LUCK!! SEMOGA BERJAYA!!!

i love you. always..

xoxo. <3

happy randomness

2010-08-31T06:13:00.000-07:00

so.. i know its been awhile since i wrote some fun stuff. so to brighten uo this blog, heres some stuff just for all of you!

1. happy merdeka to all malaysians!!!
2. happt birthday to my valentine, samantha! ur 16! god bless lots.hee!!! xP
3. my bf asked if girls get horny. sweat case!
4. i am hyper and sort off happy after having a party at my cousin/pet bros hse. it was pretty fun. met new friends.
5. life is super crazy ryte now. wish i had a double.
6. i love all of you! hee..

thats all ppl. gb always..

XOXO!!!
<3

of all the people!!!!

2010-08-31T05:52:00.000-07:00

dont you find it frustrating when you meet your current partner's exs one by one?? i mean, how small can this world be after all?

first its a girl that cant seem to get over you. now its a girl who is way preetier and whom my parents know her parents. it gets on my nerves that they exist in this place with me. heck.. i feel damn jealous and even more unsecure. what the fucking matter is wrong?? am i going to meet all your ex one by one???

i dont know how to cope with this. i feel suffocated for some reason. lost for words.

i do a pretty good job of hiding how i really feel from you because i want our little time spent together to be a cherished memory.

but i wish that you knew me as well as i know you. then you can detect what i really feel inside when i am hiding from you.

you even still use the same email with her name on it. i might allow you to still use it. but inside of me a small person is screaming to not let you use it.

if only you could understand how i really felt. if only you knew...

IF ONLY...

after it happened..

2010-08-29T21:29:00.000-07:00

finally we are back in kl. after 3 days of being with you the whole time, i am missing your presence. its so lonely without you by my side.

baby dear,

i miss watching you sleep, miss feeding you, miss taking care of you. the only thing that is close to me by my heart is the necklace you boght for me with your name on it. i will forever wear it so that it will be close to me all the time.

i want you to be with me forever. to watch you sleep, looking so sweet and innocent and fragile. it makes me love you more and more. i feel protective to take care of you.

now it seems so lonely at home because you are not with me. a part of me is missing without you. i got used to you being by my side in the past 3 days. if only we could turn and freeze the time at that those days. i love you baby.. so much.

if only you were with me now...

one day..

2010-08-28T07:53:00.000-07:00

yesterday was day 1 of my vacation with you and my family. the trip here was pretty fast wasnt it? i still remember waking you up in the morning to bathe. god! you were so cute and i felt terrible for needing to wake you up as i knew you didnt sleep much the night before.

then the trip in the car. we played chor tai ti. haha. it was funny as you were being frustrated after losing again and again. when you finally won the last game, you were so happy! like a small kid. we brought you to eat melaka fishball aka eepeah. and satay after that. all in just less than an hour. there was a baby there and i was playing with it. carried it around and keeping it entertained. i love babies, did you know that? they are so innocent and cute, just like you.

we also went swimming. saw you swimming for the first time. and i had leg cramp. you even offered to carry me back to the apartment. at night we went to eat satay celup. and you met my aunty and uncle. you were worried when my aunty said she had stomach pain, because she was pregnant. how sweet and caring of you!

we went to jonkers street and my mum bought a wrist band for you, me and my sister. we have the same band because i wanted it to remind you of our time together in melaka.

finally we settled at a pub and for the third time you were drinking. i was worried because you were pretty tired and so i told you to not finish the last glass of beer. instead, we gave half of it to my dad, a little to my sis and finally i drank it all..

and i even fell asleep on you. lol! it was so comfortable and yet noisy. when we finally went back to the hotel, we ended up talking or whispering on my bed before we finally decided to sleep. hee!!! we were sleeping in the same room!(to everyone who is reading this, we slept on separate beds and my sister was sleeping in the room with us too!)

if i had my way, baby dear, i would like it so much if we could spend our days and nights like this everyday of our lifes. but while i have you now, i will just remember this moments together. i hope you had fun baby dear. love you always! muah!!!! hugs!!!

yesterday, today and tomorrow.

2010-08-26T06:54:00.000-07:00

me dear..

i am just so exhausted right now. i keep thinking about you even though you're just next to me. how do i cope with this feeling? i am confused.

i keep thinking of our past. for some reason, i think of our problems that we had. and i keep wishing that i can return in time so that i can keep those things that i did that hurt you from ever happening. remember those times that we argued and fought? i couldnt help but cry. it hurts me just to think about it. yet, most of our arguments took place because i missed you so much and kept being moody. isnt it just weird?

and then i'll also think of our time together.. sweet memories of us. the more i think of it, the more i realise that we have had more arguments than sweet memories.i just want us to have more happy mments but i dont know how to have those moments with you.

sometimes i wonder. if you ever regretted being with me. when i start thinking of this, i think of her. do u miss her? do you want her back? do you ever think of her more than a friend? i wish i could say that i dont want you to be friends with her, to look at her or contact her. but that just shows that i am being insecure. i'm trying to be matured about it but i find it so hard to control my emotions.

today...
i try to be happy because you are here with me. i get to take you along with my family on a vacation. but sadly.. i dont feel all that happy. i was excited. but seeing you now, how tired and moody you are. i worry so much about you. i dont know what to do to comfort you. how to cheer you up?? i feel so useless sometimes. i just wish that i knew what to do?!

tomorrow...

will it be better than today and all our yesterdays? i feel a fear of our future together. i know that i cant possibly live if you ever left me. but i would not stop you. i can only pray and hope that you wont. baby.. i just want to live happily my life with you by my side. what ever tomorrow holds in store, i will be able to live trough it with you at my side.

DEAR GOD,

once again i can only thank you for everything that you have given to me. i pray that you will keep him by my side and that no matter what he does or chooses, he will be happy. take care and protect him from harm and evil. THANK YOU.

love you always baby.. <3 <3

what if?

2010-08-21T07:09:00.000-07:00

what if???

1. you decide that i am not worth it one day and leave me?
2. hurt me without meaning to and yet dont realise it?
3. decide that i am not good enough for you and go after another girl?
4. you think that life isnt worth to live and decide to leave me in tis cold and lonely world?
5. that your ex is better than me and that you regret leaving her and want her back?

WHAT IF???
WHAT WOULD I DO THEN??
WILL I DECIDE TO TAKE MY LIFE AWAY AND JUST MAKE THE BIGGEST SIN IN MY LIFE??

OH JESUS, please help me. i am your humble servant. guide me.

BABY,
do you know how much you mean to me? how much i love you? how i cant live without you? how i wish that you can be with me every single moment of our life?

i cant stop thinking about you. you have turned my world upside down. there is nothing in this world that matters more than you.

and yet.. i still feel lonely and insecure when you are not with me. i feel upset when you unintentionally or intentionally flirt with other girls, or when you forget about me when you're with your brothers, or when you prefer to watch football than be with me.

i feel sad when you tell me that she is better than me(even when i ask you to tell me). i feel a fear in me that one day you might say that you you have seen the light and regret leaving her and want to be with her again. i feel angry when sometimes you say things that hurts me but you dont mean it on purpose yet you also dont realise that you have hurt me.

i often wondered what it would feel like to be falling in love so deeply with some one like in fairytales. i finally know what it feels like now. to feel all this emotions in me.. love, jealousy, sadness, happiness, joy, tears, frustration, upset, fear...

that is what it feels like when i am with you. i just cant help the negative feelings that i have sometimes. at night i would lie in bed and think of you and how much it would hurt if you break my heart and went back on all your promises to me. i would not be able to stand the pain and would rather stand in the middle of the road.

there is just so much that i need from you. yet...

i can only thank you for giving me this chance to be with you. no matter what happens, i am grateful because i had a chance to be your love. i would forgive you a million times over even when you have hurt me. i would never remember it because loving you is all that matters.

THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE BY MY SIDE AND TAKING CARE OF ME. FORGIVE ME FOR THE TIMES THAT I HAVE HURT YOU MYSELF. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL. I PRAY FOR OUR HAPPINESS TOGETHER AND THAT YOU'LL AKWAYS BE BY MY SIDE.

OH DEAR GOD,

thank you for blessing me with this wonderful person. thank you for creating him and giving him to me. truly, mere words cannot describe how much i love him nor can it describe my gratefulness to you. you have created him to be so special. and i pray that my time with him will always be happy. may we always be happy together. may you take care of him when i am not with him, may no harm or evil befall him. i love him so much and cannot live without him.

i thank you dear lord once again for giving him to me and i love you too..

BABY.. THANK YOU FOR BEING APART OF MY LIFE. HUGS AND KISSES!! I LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER.

leave him alone..

2010-08-20T03:18:00.000-07:00

hey ppl,

have you ever think of how lucky you are when you finally meet that special some one?
have you ever felt protective of that some one when you see another person disturbing or teasing??
have you ever felt jealous when you see some one else flirting and trying to get that special some one's attention???

well, let me tell you that i have.

knowing my beloved is the best thing that happened to me. yet, i often feel unsecure and fear when he is not around by my side.

when my sister told me that her friends were curious about my boyfriend and wanted to check him out in fb, i could not even describe how intense my jealousy. i just couldnt and wouldnt imagine what it would feel like if he ever left me for some other girl. the pain...

and to see the girls face to face and trying to flirt with him. imagine how i felt when i see them doing that and with no other person but my BOYFRIEND! it is so hard to just ignore the anger in me and trying to control that emotion. haiz..

i just wish he would attract less attention from the opp sex. but what can i say?? he is irresistable..

oh well.. i guess that all i can do is trust in him. and warn all girls to stay away from him. he ony belongs to me. and please, stop wasting your time.. stop trying to hurt my relationship with him. i love him alot. and i cant live without him..

guess thats all for now. remember ppl, take care of ur beloved from predators who will try to steal them away fom you.

i pray to god to keep him safe from harm and that he will always be by my side and never leave me..

god bless!

xoxo <3

2010-08-17T07:19:00.000-07:00

hey ppl..

have you ever thought about just being a kid forever??

remember when we were young and innocent? nothing to worry about, no problems to care.. just sheer joy and complete happiness..

and yet, here we are. all grown up and having to be independent. having to solve our own problems.. but the more we think and try to solve it, the more problems we seem to create!

it is as if the world is against us.

i've often wondered if life is just playing a game with me.. i feel so afraid that one day i will lose everything.
especially that special some one. my beloved..

what if one day life decides that it has had enough fun and games with me and decide to steal him away from me? to leave me alone? to not have some one who i love and care for so much by side any longer?

i cant bear to face it. i cant even think about it. i cant breathe when i think about this. to lose him is like being thrown into the middle of the road and facing what ever it is that comes and takes my life away.

without him in my life, i fear that i will be lost. life would be meaningless and not worth to leave. i cant lose him for fear of losing myself.. i love him too much!

baby, without you, i wont be happy today. you picked up the broken pieces of my heart and made it whole again. please, dont ever leave me. i cant live without you. i love you so much baby.. now and forever, you own me, heart and soul..

xoxo <3

2010-08-16T07:37:00.000-07:00

hey ppl!!

today i wanna share with you something.

life, as i've found out often enough, is never easy. the many times my heart was broken or where ive hurt some one, the problems i've face at home, school.. it tires the hell out of me and leaves me exhausted and frustrated with my life.

often i have thought about giving up and just standing in the middle of the road so that i dont have to face my life anymore. to just give up hope in myself and the people around me..

god however, never gave up hope on me. HE decided to give me the support and strength to go on with every failure that i encountered. through my churh youths, HE opened up my eyes and heart. and ever since i let HIM into my life, i have lived better. he did wonders for me. as long as i needed him and continued to be with HIM, HE will always be by my side and never let me go.

i thank HIM so much for everything that he has given to me. my life, every breath that i take, my family and friends, all the grace and blessings that HE has showered me with. and i especially thank HIM for giving me that special someone in my life.

to you who owns me, heart and soul,

never be afraid when i am not with you physically. baby, look for me in your heart as that is where i belong. no one else can take me away from you, and no one can take you away from me. the moment you entered my life, you have only brought me joy and happiness, words that can describe how much you mean to me. i will always LOVE you no matter what happens.

so i pray to GOD that he will continue to to bless us and that he will protect us from eveil and harm and from people who wants to keep us apart. i pray that we will have a long and lasting relationshi[ always.

and i pray that god will shower his grace and blessings on you who reads this..

thats all for now. CIAOZ and GOD BLESS ALWAYS!!

xoxo <3

hard life

2010-07-25T07:26:00.000-07:00

do you feel like everything in this world is against you? like you;re constantly alone?
like you have no one when you need someone?
and then when you do something everyweek and yet the 1 week you want to take off you just get scolding from certain people??

i have. sometimes, i feel so unappreciated. a lot of people come to me only when they need something from me. other than that they just ignore me like i am not there or like i'm invincible!

wat the F***!!!!!

is this how i am suppossed to be treated? they just dont care what i feel. its all about them. what they want, or what they say and wat they feel. its all about them.

especially my family.
i just want to give up.

crazy lil thing called love

2010-07-24T03:26:00.000-07:00

many people wonder what is love. including me.

i always imagined it to be like what the books describe. you know?? when you kiss a person and you'll hear bells? when you have found the person you love, it will take your breath away?? that sort of things that only will come true in fariytales.

imagine my horror when i finally wake up from this dream to find that it hardly ever happens that way! does this mean that i will never be able to find that boy who will swoop into my life like a knight in shining armour and steal my heart away?

sigh.. i dated 3 boys. and i loved them all. but they were not meant for me. they cared for me and some day i hope that they will find the perfect girl that deserves them. to those 3 boys, forgive me if i have hurt you. but know that i will always be there for you...

...

so now comes the question.. who is this boy that was meant for me?is he even out there? or will i end up as a spinster with 77 cats?

i am happy to say that i found 1 boy who fits this dream boy of mine. he is everything i wished for and more. he loves me and takes care of me. he is cute, nice and sweet. what more could i possibly ask for?

of course, i still dream of certain things that he would do with me. for instance i wish that he could come over my house and spend time with me. i want to cuddle with him as we sit together watching a movie.

i want him to whisper in my ears that he loves me and that he belongs only with me at his side as he hugs me tightly. i wish that when he wins something he will win it for me. and after that he will take me in his arms as he kisses me. isnt this the kind of things that every girl dreams of?

i want to walk down a beach, holding his hands, as we talk about everything that we like. i dream of a moonlight dinner at a place so romantic.. and that he will sing a perfectly romantic song and dedicate it to me.

i wish that i could lie in bed with him next to me, hugging me, look me in the eye and whisper how much i meant to him and how much he loves me...

i know some of the things that i hope and dream of is a bit too extreme.. but if only it can be done then i would be the happiest person in this planet.

i want our love for each other to always be strong and last forever. for all the hurts and pains that he has caused me, i will always forgive him and smile for him so that he will always be happy.

for all the hurt that i have caused him, well, i am sincerely very sorry, my love.. i never meant to hurt yoou and if i could i would take it all back. i just want to hold you in my arms right now and be there for you always.

there is truly nothing in this world that i could want more than you. NOTHING. to have you by my side all the time is truly the best moments in my life. to be this in love with you.. its the best give that GOD could have ever given me.

thats just the beauty of love. it brings joy and sadness, happiness and tears. it creates problems and gives us the sweetest memories of each other. it is not perfect but it brings us closer to each other. love is blind because it doesnt matter if you're not perfect. to make mistakes and to accept them. to always forgive one another.

truly, my dear, you have stolen my heart. there is nothing left of me that you do not own..

i love you forever and eternally..

treat ur woman ryte!

2010-07-23T08:18:00.001-07:00

It ' s not difficult to make a woman happy.
A man only needs to be:

1. a friend
2. a companion
3.. a lover
4. a brother
5. a father
6. a master
7. a chef
8. an electrician
9. a carpenter
10. a plumber
11. a mechanic
12. a decorator
13. a stylist
14. a sexologist
15. a gynecologist
16. a psychologist
17.. a pest exterminator
18. a psychiatrist
19. a healer
20. a good listener
21. an organizer
22. a good father
23. very clean
24. sympathetic
25. athletic
26. warm
27. attentive
28. gallant
29. intelligent
30. funny
31. creative
32. tender
33. strong
34... understanding
35. tolerant
36. prudent
37. ambitious
38... capable
39. courageous
40. determined
41. true
42. dependable
43. passionate
44. compassionate

WITHOUT FORGETTING TO:

45. give her compliments regularly
46. love shopping
47. be honest
48. be very rich
49.. not stress her out
50. not look at other girls

AND AT THE SAME TIME, YOU MUST ALSO:

51. give her lots of attention, but expect little yourself
52. give her lots of time, especially time for herself
53. give her lots of space, never worrying about where she goes

IT IS VERY IMPORTANT:

54. Never to forget:
* birthdays
* anniversaries
* arrangements she makes

HOW TO MAKE A MAN HAPPY

1. Don't bother him

2. Give him Peanuts and beer

haha!

2010-07-23T08:05:00.001-07:00

China is the place to be

for English teachers...

WELCOME FOR COMING???

The Key to Existence is pushing!

Duh…?

I won't...... Promise....

CHILDREN MADE IN CHINA !

Have a careful suicide...

I'm NOT going to pay to trim my foot!

Still didn't understand?.... Neither did I...

(May be accident prone area)

Data Breaker ?!?!?!

Bottled water in a can ?

I'm going down pressing my head up...

Looks like one ...

Okay......

Sorry I can't treasure the used one...

ARE THEY YOUR RELATIVES???

NICE TO MEET THEM......

Thanks for the Suggestion…!!!

So what do I press?!!!

Yes I WILL…..!!!

Lord of the .....

Died on the table?

Thanks for your corporation!

for that special someone

2010-07-23T07:32:00.000-07:00

i once felt that my life had no meaning, as there was so much conflict in it. i didnt care what happened to me because my life meant nothing to me. but that was all before i met him.

i still think that god wanted me to llove my life so He gave me that special someone.

the day he came into my life, it was like a tornado hitting at malysia. i felt like everything in my life became worse. how could i not?

here i was, falling for a very cute and perfect boy all over again. and i thought to myself, there was no way that he would want me. no way that he would give me a chance.

yet, that didnt stop me from trying to get close to him. if i couldnt have.. well at least i could be there as his friend right??

the more i got to know him, the more i fell in love with him. i couldnt help it! i was lost in love..

when he said that he liked me, i was the happiest person in this world. but could it be true?

after a month of knowing him, he asked me... well, i'm sure u can guess what he asked.. after contemplatiing it for a week i agreed. it was like a dream come true..

in 10 days it would be our 2nd month. ya we have had more downs then ups. but i cant help loving him all the more.

to be this in love with him.. o never knew that this can exist in my so not perfect life. but wat can i say?

my heart is in his hands. i miss him when i dont see him and i cant help thinking about him all the time.

to that special someone, you know who you are. i just want to say that i love you so much and that i belong to you, heart and soul, now and forever!

clueless..

2010-07-20T23:30:00.000-07:00

i sit in classs thinking about that special someone. i feel lost without him and my life is meaningless when he's not by my side.

how am i to live my life if one day he decides to leave me? this is my biggest fear. that he will one day leave me for another girl. am i being paranoid?

i have no faith in myself at all. no confidence. i often wonder what he sees in me now?? will that special thing about me that attracts him to me someday fade? will he get bored of it one day??

i just pray that it will never happen. i cannot live my life if he leaves me. i pray that he will forever remain mith me just as how he always will remain in my heart..

of studying and badminton

2010-06-16T02:06:00.000-07:00

hey peeps..

so here is an update from the twins house. we.. STUDIED!

in your face hong! haha. we actually studied. not much but we did! haha. we did my muet, chem and math(my sis)..

after that we were talking to hong and wishing him happy birthday. his LAST teen birthday. after this he will be no more in his teens.. and then we ate pizza. haha! yy ate lasagna. it tasted weird, like WEIRD weird. and we made him finish our pizza for us. hehe!

and we finally went for badminton at the park near their house. i SUCK.. haha. ok. not totally. but still... yy was pretty awesome..(dun get too perasan). and the twins were trying to kill each other at hte game. it was scary.. i was in the side of the court trying not to get hurt.. lol! xD

all in all, it was pretty awesome today. i had a great time.

btw, happy birthday to my dearest dad! you're 49 and growing older.. xD love you daddy..

and happy birthday to my cute sayang too! love you always and hope your wishes and dreams will come true. love you!

thats all for now ppl. til next time, take care.

ciaoz..

XOXO

boon lye

2010-06-14T00:05:00.000-07:00

ok so today i am gonna blog about my latest kor kor.

NAME: boon lye
AGE: 18 1/2
SEX: boy
STATUS: single and available..

so this is my kor kor. (dun kill me boon lye!) he is so sweet and nice. and he sayang me. goodness. he even scolded me cuz i accidentally burnt my fingers. carelessly but still accident and yet kena scolding.. =.="

so the first time i met him, he was so super shy!(admit it bl! even bai agrees). and then on saturday, 12/6/10, we went out to ou. and he was so talkative! i was so super surprise. and then he go talk to my sis secrets and never tell me. sedih betul wei!

and then he was so camera shy. i had to sneak and take his pics. haha! and luckily he didnt manage to delete all the pics.

and altough something sad happens to him, he still happy happy go lucky! he is so good at controlling his emotions. if it was me then i will be so sad and emo la!

haha.. all in all, my kor is pretty perfect! keke.. sayang u kor!

anyway, thats all for now..

till next time people.

ciaoz!

XOXO

of OU-ting and world cups..

2010-06-12T22:33:00.000-07:00

hey peeps!!!

so this is my latest updates. hope you like it..

first up is my new school. smksas.
samadians in my school is so awesome and friendly! and tot hink i wanted to shift from that school cuz i hated it at first!!! but after our third day orientation and getting to know the awesome lower 6s, i had no heart to leave the school.. i love bein a samadian. and you know wat??? 3 ppl hu shifted to tmn sea ended up shifting back to sas just after a day or 2! we all love sas so very much..

secondly, i have a boyfriend!!! and he's so super super cute!!! haha.
my sister saw some of his shirtless pics and started droolin over him.. sweat betul! but i am so happy to be with him. haha! he's so sweet and nice.. and cute! haha.. ILY sayang!

thirdly, my newest kor..
he's a samadian like my boyfriend too.. hehe. and in school he is so so so shy! but on fb and through texting, he is so talkative! seriously.. and yesterday he talk quite alot when we were out! damn surprising wei! and he is so nice to me too.. sayang me lots too.. haha! sayang u, kor!!!

foruthly, OU-ting!
so yesterday i went out to ou wit 12 other frens. including my sister. we had a lot of fun. i had a fun time. especailly since i could lepak with my sas family. yang yi was as perasan as ever.. twins were funny and arguing as usual.. haha! my kor spoke a lot nd my bf is sweet. haha! my sister had fun. she fitted in quite well even though she was about 2-3 years younger than the rest of us.. haha! and we watched karate kid. jaden is so super cute la. and jackie chan was so old in the movie. i wonder how old he really is now...
overall, the starting was a lil bit of a bore. but the ending was pretty cool. makes me feel like learning KUNG FU!

finally.. world cup!
it has started!!!!!!!!!!! football fever is happenin all over the world. its a disease! BEWARE!!!!
ok.. i need to say this. I SUPPORT ENGLAND!!!!! go team!!! and my secong choice is korea.. gone la. kena influence by some1 already. hmmm.. unfortunately tough, i miss englands first game tis morning. i was so tired until couldnt wake up for the game. and tat was why england drew. cuz their no.1 fan wasnt watching... hehe! go GeRARD! haha.. korea won their first game so it was good.. 2-O!!! go korea!!!! ok.. i am terllu influence already. GONE LA!!!!!!! haha..

anyway, i think this has been a very long update already. haha! dun wanna bore all of you too much.

so till next time..

keep being ur cool and fun selfs!
CIOAZ!!!

p.s. i am a peeled banana. how weird is that??? =P

XOXO!

the ANT philosophy by Jim Rohn

2010-05-05T00:18:00.001-07:00

Over the years, I’ve been teaching kids about a simple but powerful concept: the Ant Philosophy. I think everybody should study ants. They have an amazing four-part philosophy.
Here is the first part: Ants never quit. That’s a good philosophy. If they’re headed somewhere and you try to stop them, they’ll look for another way. They’ll climb over. They’ll climb under. They’ll climb around. They keep looking for another way. What a neat philosophy—to never quit looking for a way to get where you’re supposed to go.
Second, ants think winter all summer. That’s an important perspective. You can’t be so naive as to think summer will last forever. So ants gather their winter food in the middle of summer.
An ancient story says, “Don’t build your house on the sand in the summer.” Why do we need that advice? Because it is important to think ahead. In the summer, you’ve got to think storm. You’ve got to think rocks as you enjoy the sand and sun.
The third part of the Ant Philosophy is that ants think summer all winter. That is so important. During the winter, ants remind themselves, “This won’t last long; we’ll soon be out of here.” And the first warm day, the ants are out. If it turns cold again, they’ll dive back down, but then they come out the first warm day. They can’t wait to get out.
And here’s the last part of the ant philosophy. How much will an ant gather during the summer to prepare for the winter? All he possibly can. What an incredible philosophy, the “all-you-possibly-can” philosophy.
Wow, what a great philosophy to have—the ant philosophy. Never give up, look ahead, stay positive and do all you can.

poetry..

2010-05-05T00:15:00.001-07:00

A good and civil way to have a fight instead of physically.... Poems written by WIFE and HUSBAND.

WIFE:
I wrote your name on sand it got washed.
I wrote your name in air, it was blown away.
Then I wrote your name on my heart & I got Heart Attack.
HUSBAND:
God saw me hungry, he created pizza.
He saw me thirsty, he created Pepsi.
He saw me in dark, he created light.
He saw me without problems, he created YOU.
WIFE:
Twinkle twinkle little star
You should know what you are
And once you know what you are
Mental hospital is not so far.
HUSBAND:
The rain makes all things beautiful.
The grass and flowers too.
If rain makes all things beautiful
Why doesn't it rain on you?
WIFE:
Roses are red; Violets are blue
Monkeys like u should be kept in zoo.
Don't feel so angry you will find me there too
Not in cage but laughing at you

april...

2010-04-14T03:29:00.000-07:00

hey people..

i know. it's been awhile since i updated. so super extremely sorry. life has been busy and i didn't have the wireless since it belongs to my dearly beloved bro.

so fast that the month of march has fly by. i miss that month because for obvious reasons... its my birthday. not forgetting also that the jym had their annual lenten outreach. i was in charge of tansportation. it was no easy job to do since there were a lot of people and we had to car pool. it was a little havoc but thanks to angelica and my young padawan, alex, it all went well. so kudos to the both of you. you made my life easy. no thanks to west and kevin tay.

now its april and there is a lot of new work and practices. our annual easter party is coming up and there is lots to prepare. and the selection of new outreach team members is currently underway. wow!!! new juniors to help out and teach.. so many things yet so little time.

oh ya.. crystal just remined me that school will be opening soon for the both of us. form 6!!!! its horrifyin and exciting at the same time. good luck to us.

one more thing.. i miss all my school friends whom i have not seen for a month. if you're readig this know how much i miss gossiping and playing as well as jamming with all of you. HUGS!!!!

guess thats all for now. i'll try to update asap but no promises..

love you all..

ciao!!!

XOXO <3

so many things to say...

2010-03-11T23:29:00.000-08:00

yesterday was one of the saddest days in my life. spm results was out.. no!!!! and when i went to school, i saw all my school friends again. how we all changed in just 3 months is a wonder. we ended up cam-whoring the whole time while waiting for our dear 'beloved' class teachers who were in the office sorting out our results. when i got my results i told my teacher to not tell me.

instead i took hold of the certs and went to my closest friend in classs, vishnu, and ask her if it was bad. she said no. when i looked at it, i got a shock! i pased all my subjects!!! my add math was a grade C.

another shock was that i did better on my physics paper compared to my favourite science paper, bio. overall though, it was not what i expected. i aimed for a minimum of 5A's but i only got 3. but as the saying goes, alls well that ends well. i won a partial bet with my dad and now he has to stop smoking.

now i only have to wait for form 6 to begin. orientation in tmn sea will start soon. and no matter what, i will try to do my best to score for stpm next year. it will be a tough challenge.

my birthday on tuesday passed without much of an event. i had a birthday dinner. but the best time was in the car with my brother when we were sending him home to my grandparents. since he didnt get me a birthday present this year, i told him to allow me to kiss him on the cheeks. no surprises, he said no. while in the car, my sister had to sit between me and my brother. but i still struggled and tried to kiss him. it was pretty moisy and hilarious. before he went down from the car, he had to wrestle with me and my sister since i was still trying to kiss him. once out, he literally ran into the house to get away from us. haha!

dont worry! i will get to kiss him before he goes of to u.s.a next yera! love ya lots, bro!!!!

thats all for now. i will try to update more often but no promises.

till the next time i write...

ciao!!!

XOXO <3

can water be affected by our words?

2010-03-11T22:48:00.000-08:00

Can water be affected by our words?
Dr. Masaru Emoto, a Japanese scientist, believes so.
And he has proof.

Dr. Emoto took water droplets, exposed them to various words, music, and environments, and froze them for three hours. He then examined the crystal formations under a dark field microscope. And he took photographs.

The results were totally mind-blowing.

Here's a photo of ordinary water without any prayer spoken over it. The molecular structure is in disarray.

The photo below is water after the prayer was said. It's simply breathtaking. (I now have a great respect for praying before meals! More on this later.)

Dr. Emoto also exposed water to Heavy Metal music. Here's how it looks like. Looks sad if you ask me.

Here's water exposed to classical music and folk dance music. Looks much better, right?

Next, Dr. Emoto stuck a piece of paper with these words: "You make me sick. I will kill you." Here's how the frozen water droplets looks like under the microscope…

Below is how water looked like with the words "Love" over it. The difference is amazing.

This is Polluted water…

This is water from Lourdes , France . Utterly beautiful, right?

Wait A Minute— Aren't You Made Up Of Water?

Yes! 72% of your body is made up of water. Imagine how your words affect your own body. When you say, "I'm a failure," or "I'm hopeless," or "I won't get well," imagine how these words weaken your health.

Make a choice to say the best words out there. Say often, "I'm wonderful," and "I'm beautiful,".

It's not only water.

Dr. Emoto also experimented with cooked rice. He placed one cup of cooked rice in two airtight jars. On one jar, he wrote, "I love you," and on the other, "You fool." Everyday for 30 days, Dr. Emoto would say these words to each jar of rice.

After 30 days, the "I love you" rice was still white. But the "You fool" rice was so rotten, it was black. How can you explain this?

Just as a side note: When I was a child, my mother taught me to pray before meals. Now I realize it wasn't just a nice thing to do. When I pray over my meal, I know a material transformation takes place in the molecular level of the food that I pray for. I say, "Be blessed," to the water and food on the table—and I expect it to be blessed.

Yeah – that's why we always wish others well on birthdays, anniversaries, graduation, festivals, examination days, etc…. BE BLESSED, everybody!!!

bday and results!!!

2010-02-26T01:51:00.000-08:00

hey ppl!!!

how're you all feeling after cny??? hope you all had a great time celbrating. i know i did. i mean i collected a lot of ang paus! i even gambled for the first time. won quite alot from my dad too. hehe! even my brother did.

i also went out with devon, nic, my brother and my sister to pyramid. we went to watch 'Valentine's Day'... it was funny and painful. why??? cuz our seats were right in front and we had to strain our necks! ouch betul...!!

anyways, it is the end of aother month and the beginning of march soon. my bday is just around the corner!!! sois my best friend, darren's. his is just 5 days before mine. and its funny cuz i'm only.

the bad news is that my results are coming out!! no!!!!!!!!!!! its 3 days after my bday. thank god i get to enjoy my bday first. lol!

oh before i forget.. congrats yto all stpm students who got their results. hope you all achieved what you wanted!

well, thats all for now. i have nothing much to talk already. haha!

to all march babies,,, happy bday to us!!

to all spm candidates yuear 2009, good luck with our results!!!!

ciao.

XOXO <3

law of attraction

2010-02-14T02:21:00.000-08:00

"Experimenting with a magnet brought the law of attraction to life for

me... positives attract, and negatives repel.

When people allow fear, worry, doubt, indecision and other forms of

negative thinking to determine the direction of their mental

attitude, they shut off the positive power of their magnets."

Joke Of the Day (TWO GHOSTS!) Take A Break .....

2010-02-14T02:03:00.000-08:00

Two ghosts met and both chat about how they died.

1st Ghost: How u died?

2nd Ghost: I died of cold.

1st Ghost: How does it feel when you're dying in cold?

2nd Ghost: Actually, I was imprisoned in the refrigerator. Initially, I was shivering, then my whole body started to freeze, later I felt the whole world was dark and I died. Fortunately, I died with not much sufferings.

1st Ghost: You're so pityful....

2nd Ghost: How about you? How did u die?

1st Ghost: I died from heart attack.

2nd Ghost: I see, why did u have a heart attack?

1st Ghost: Actually, I found out that my wife is having an affair with another man. One day, when I came back from work, saw a pair of man shoes outside my house. Then, I realized that the guy was in my house with my wife. When I rushed into the bedroom, my wife was alone. I must find where that bastard is hiding. So I searched the toilet, I ran downstairs, looked in the storeroom, but the bastard was not there. So, I ran upstairs and searched the wardrobe, but I found nothing. Because I was too tired of all that running,I got a heart attack and died.

2nd Ghost: Why didn't you look for the bastard in the fridge? If you did, both of us will be alive

EVE OF CNY

2010-02-13T02:36:00.000-08:00

hey...

today was a rather tiring day for me. i finally cleaned up my messy bedroom. all my highschool and reference book is finally either going to be recycled or has been giveen to my sister. my room looks so clean and tidy now! i wonder how long i can keep this up. lol.

actually, my whole house was cleaned today. even my brother came over to help. i actually got him to mop the house for me. hehe! thanks kor! I LOVE YOU!!!! it was like spring cleaning for my family.

unfortunately though, i missed going out with some friends today. it's my mum's birthday. not forgetting wilson's and peter's too! w-o-w! 3 people i know has the same birthday.

anyways, i hope i get to see a certain someone soon. i really miss that person lots. haha! you know who you are!

cny starts tomorrow and i get to see some old friends that i havent seen since xmas. at least that makes me excited.

to be honest, this year has not been all that good for me. and somehow, i dont feel like clebrating much. with GOD's grace though, i hope it will improve.

well, i dont wanna bore you with my dramas. or rather soap operas actually. lol. hope you all enjoy your week!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YER TO YOU ALL!

P.S. I'm looking forward to receiving ang paus from all of you. hehe.

ciao.

XOXO <3

randomness

2010-02-12T01:38:00.000-08:00

hey ppl!!!

sorry so long didnt update. haha. been real bz wit stuff in church. guess wat??? i got picked to be a part of the core team. its nice to be involved once again in jym after taking a year off.

i m also teaching ss(sunday school) in church. though i asked for a secondary class, i got stucked with a standard 2 class! it isn't so bad though. i meant the first week. the children are all so cute! but the saying "dont judge a book by its cover" is so true. after the first two weeks, the kids finally started making friends with each other. but they also stated making havoc in class. it is like a market there. to quote one of my co-teacher.. she always asked the kids, "is this a market selling fish and chicken???" haha! they're real terrifying 'monsters'! but deep down, they're all very nice and sweet. after every sunday, i keep wishing i didnt teach. but as the week comes, i find myself looking forward to teaching these lil monsters. they're really an awesome class.

nothing much exciting is happening in my life now though. cny is just this weekend. can get lots of money.

welcome home to dev too. although its only for a few days. too bad i cant go out with you tomorrow(saturday). cuz its my mum's birthday too. and family is always first. haha. btw, you look really cute with crew cut hair and wearing the ns uniform. hehehe!!

i guess thats all for now.

HAPPY CHINESSE NEW YEAR TO ALL!

HAPPY VALENTINES!! <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUMMY, WILSON, AND PETER (ALL THEIR BDAY IS ON THE SAME DAY!) AS WELL AS TO ALL FEBRUARY BABIES!! GOD BLESS ALWAYS!!!

ciao!

XOXO

panda therapy!

2010-02-12T01:12:00.000-08:00

Mum? Can you come and get me down now?

I'm not coming out.
You'll have to come in and get me.

On the count of three.... lift!

Betcha can't see me.....

Oops! Slight miscalculation.

You go. I'll just stay here and rest my head a little bit.

It wasn't me! I didn't steal this bamboo shoot!
It was just sitting here, I swear it!

I'll give you 2 seconds to get off me or I'm calling Mom.

Pardon me but do you have a napkin?

Paparazzi! Could we have a little privacy please?

Dear Martha Stewart:
I have this brown stain on my nice, white, fluffy butt...

Shhhh! I'm reviewing...

I cannot believe that I'm stuck in this tree again.
What is the matter with me?

I'm sure there's a way out somewhere.
I saw an ant go this way yesterday.

Forgive me Father, for I have sinned...

Pandas looking for lost earrings....

Absolutely nothing accomplished.
The perfect day for a panda...

SOME LOGICAL THOUGHTS AND STATEMENTS

2010-02-12T00:38:00.000-08:00

Whenever you find the key to success, someone changes the lock.
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To Err is human, but to forgive is not a COMPANY policy.
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The road to success??.. Is always under construction.
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Alcohol doesn't solve any problems, but if you think again, neither does Milk.
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In order to get a Loan, you first need to prove that you have ability to repay back.
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All the desirable things in life are either illegal, expensive or fattening.
_____

Since Light travels faster than Sound, people appear brighter before you hear them speak.
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Everyone has a scheme of getting rich?.. Which never works.
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If at first you don't succeed?. Destroy all evidence that you ever tried.
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You can never determine which side of the bread to butter. If it falls down, it will always land on the buttered side.
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Anything dropped on the floor will roll over to the most inaccessible corner.
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42.7% of all statistics is made on the spot.
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As soon as you mention something?? if it is good, it is taken?. If it is bad, it happens.
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He who has the gold, makes the rules ---- Murphy's golden rule.
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If you come early, the bus is late. If you come late?? the bus is still late.
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Once you have bought something, you will find the same item being sold somewhere else at a cheaper rate.
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When in a queue, the other line always moves faster and the person in front of you will always have the most complex of transactions.
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If you have paper, you don't have a pen. If you have a pen, you don't have paper. If you have both, no one calls.
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Especially for engg. Students : If you have bunked the class, the professor has taken attendance.
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You will pick up maximum wrong numbers when on roaming.
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The door bell or your mobile will always ring when you are in the bathroom.
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After a long wait for bus no.20, two 20 number buses will always pull in together and the bus which you get in will be crowded than the other.
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If your exam is tomorrow, there will be a power cut tonight.
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Irrespective of the direction of the wind, the smoke from the cigarette will always tend to go to the non-smoker
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Before borrowing money from a friend, decide whether you need more.
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There are three sides to every argument: your side, my side and the right side.
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An expert is someone who takes a subject you understand and makes it sound confusing.
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Many things can be preserved in alcohol. Dignity is not one of them.
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Never argue with a fool. People might not know the difference.
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When you're right, no one remembers. When you're wrong, no one forgets.
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Always remember that you are absolutely unique. Just like everyone else.
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Well done is better than well said .
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Everyone makes mistakes. The trick is to make them when nobody is looking.
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Where there is a WILL, there is a WAY, Where there is MONEY, there are many WAYS.
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Where there is MONEY, there are many FRIENDS and RELATIVES.
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Everybody wants to go to heaven, but nobody wants to die.

DONT MESS WITH THEM!

2010-02-12T00:28:00.000-08:00

A mature (over 50) lady gets pulled over for speeding....
Older Woman: Is there a problem, Officer?
Officer: Ma'am, you were speeding.
Older Woman: Oh, I see.
Officer: Can I see your license please?
Older Woman: I'd give it to you but I don't have one..
Officer: Don't have one?
Older Woman: Lost it, 4 years ago for drunk driving.
Officer: I see...Can I see your vehicle registration papers please.

Older Woman: I can't do that.
Officer: Why not?

Older Woman: I stole this car.
Officer: Stole it?
Older Woman: Yes, and I killed and hacked up the owner.
Officer: You what?

Older Woman: His body parts are in plastic bags in the trunk if you want to see
The Officer looks at the woman and slowly backs away to his car and calls for back up. Within minutes 5 police cars circle the car. A senior officer slowly approaches the car, clasping his half drawn gun.
Officer 2: Ma'am, could you step out of your vehicle please!The woman steps out of her vehicle.
Older woman: Is there a problem sir?
Officer 2: One of my officers told me that you have stolen this car and murdered the owner.
Older Woman: Murdered the owner?

Officer 2: Yes, could you please open the trunk of your car, please..

The woman opens the trunk, revealing nothing but an empty trunk.
Officer 2: Is this your car, ma'am?
Older Woman: Yes, here are the registration papers.
The officer is quite stunned.
Officer 2: One of my officers claims that you do not have a driving license.
The woman digs into her handbag and pulls out a clutch purse and hands it to the officer.
The officer examines the license. He looks quite puzzled.
Officer 2: Thank you ma'am, one of my officers told me you didn't have a license, that you stole this car, and that you murdered and hacked up the owner.
Older Woman: Bet the liar told you I was speeding, too.

Don't Mess With Mature Ladies

xmas!!!!

2009-12-26T01:11:00.000-08:00

yay!!! arent you people so happy that xmas is here??? i kno i am. haha. sad though that so far i only have received two presents.. =( cant wait to receive the rest. lolz.

i am so tired too. out the whole day yesterday. going out again later to my aunty's house. and i slept at 2 something bcuz... i was talking to zachary. lol. we were so random wei. we talked abt alcohol, and xmas party and i cant remember wat else. best part was, he was also msgin my sister who was like next to me the entire time! hahax..

i cant wait for xmas jym party 2moro!!! yay!!! my two best friends are involved. haha. it'll be super super fun. i hope my brother dont mind being my driver and sending me to church.. haha.

well... thats all for now i guess. merry xmas to all and god bless always!

xoxo... XP

rally and life after exams.

2009-12-21T01:22:00.000-08:00

so.. i cannot be any happier since exams are over. and rally was a blast!!! like... F-U-Y-O-H!!! haha. i'm so happy for this years rally team. they did a really fantastic job. i love the blacklight. it was really cool. and the games. i really no voice ady and i was still running aroung cheering for my team. weird since i was not supposed to be on their side..

i met a lot of first comers this year. and they're all really fun to be with. and dancing with the lord is really really really fun!!! i bet all the girls got their dancing shoes out and had a blasted time dancing their hearts out.

life after exam... well since xmas is just around the corner... i hope to get lots of presents!!! and not forgetting, giving too. xmas party is coming up and i cant wait to see what is in store by this years team. yay!!! lol.

oh ya. i went out to pyramid with dev and the 09 team on thursday. it was fun. i finally learnt how to skate. still unstable but its better than nothing. on friday i went out with my sister and two friends from camp. we watched the princess and the frog. it was utterly boring. i do not recommend it to any1 above the age of 10. seriously. i wanted to watch avatar or zombieland. unfortunately, avatar was sold out and my sister was too short to pas as an 18 year old. so no zombieland either. sad...

ah.. i see i've written a whole essay. hope u ppl didnt fall asleep. gotta go now. i'll be back soon to blog again. oh ya.. i just remembered something. camp was made more fun bcuz a certain some1 was there!!! haha! i dare you to guess who!!!

till next time ppl.

p.s. merry xmas and a happy new year to all!!!

xoxo

randomness...

2009-11-14T20:28:00.000-08:00

ok. so i am going to be random and talk about everything that comes to mind. this will be my last post till spm is over. pray for me all of you!!!! and i'll definitely remember all of you in my prayers..

thank you ys about your comments. but you're biased. since he is your best friend and you cant criticize him!!! haha!!! XD

and baby messaged me saying did i have to put that pic of him on my blog. he says that its ugly... well baby.. like i told you, not many people read my blog. i think. haha!!! dont worry though. i know from some people that all the girls in tuition think you're so cute too. so as long as they and me think that you're cute, you dont have to worry. haha!!!

and to all november babies, especially my grandma, ys and baby... and not to forget aunty pat, happy birthday to all of you!!! hugs!!!!!

i have to off now. kinda sad la. haiz... but i need to eat lunch and go over to my uncle's house. so... till after spm people.

dont forget to pray for me and my exams. thanks so so so very much!!! XD

XOXO!!

only 5 days...

2009-11-13T01:33:00.000-08:00

so it is now only 5 days... scratch that.. less than 5 days left till spm is gonna start. and 4 weeks till its over. i cant help wishing for it to be over but that also means that i have very little time left to study. haiz. and that day when i was thinking about birthdays, i couldn't help realizing that mine is just 4 months away. thats the good news. the bad news is... spm results is more or less in that month too!!!
NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i m not going to think about that now. hehe.

so the past few weeks, big baby(kent), grandpa(philip) and ys has been coming over to my house to study. hope they managed to. since we talked and played a lot too. XD history, add math, physics.. omg!! can die wei!!!

the good thing about them coming over is that i get to see big baby! haha! i still think he's the most cutest 17 year old kid ever! hands down. i cant get over how cute he is. but only maybe i think he's cute. i'll let you decide that.

so you decide and tell me k? haha!! XD
p.s. dont you think that he looks like he wants to kiss some1? or rather the camera? haha! XD

and grandpa is so super funny. haha. seriously. he reminds me of ming long. hehe!

the sad part though is that leo couldnt make it over. i still miss him lots. cant wait for exams to be over so that i can see him. lol.

well, guess thats all i got time to blog about for now. till next time, which probably will be after spm.

to all spm students, good luck in ur exams!!! XD

xoxo...

freaky friday.

2009-11-05T22:52:00.000-08:00

yer.. so unfair!!! grandpa never come my house today. and yesterday he came but i dont think he even learn anything. lol. but so fun la him. haha. all the jokes and wanting to dance and sing. haha. and i think ys was happy since i didnt bully him so much yesterday. thanks to grandpa. and i so dont understand how ys got so good luck yeterday always winning when we were playing chor tai ti! T.T while me and grandpa didnt even win once.... except maybe me. that also only once out of i dont know how many times we played. lol. oh well. i gotta go now. my brother wants the internet and ys is currently waiting for me to start studying. lol. and i cant believe that i am about to lose a bet with him!!!!!! yer!!!! all because of big baby!!! hhmph. haiz. gotta go now.

till next time people!!! XD

xoxo.

randomness

2009-11-04T22:42:00.000-08:00

so.. i just got back from school. lol. u know what, a friend brought the latest hot mag to school today. and it has lots of pics of jacob(new moon). omg!!!!! he is so damn hot man! in the pictures there was one of him in wet t-shirt and it was showing his six packs!!! so bloody hot. but dont worry. i'm still a loyal fan to tom felton. hehe!!! and english cklass was super fun. discipline teacher came in and we were joking so much. haha. and during moral, we were talking about girls and guys with the teacher. so cool. lol. later soon i got a study session with ys and granpa(philip). lol/ study history and bio. bleh.. so boring. lol. cant wait for spm over. and i got my spm schedule today. wow!!! so full wei. all my exams one after anotheer. i am so going to die. lol. oh well, i'll just have to try my best to cope with that. haha.

till nex time ppl.

xoxo. XD

sunday.

2009-11-01T06:16:00.001-08:00

hey..
today has been a really boring day. have to go off line soon. lol. some frens just reminded me that i only have about 18 dAYs to spm... i so dun wan spm to come.

but to be honest, i also cant wait for it to end. i think there is somethin wrong with me. haha..

i cant wait for rally at the end of the year. lucky for me spm ends 3 days before rally. YAY!!!

i dunno if i should go to school 2moro. not much of a point actually. maybe i'll skip school and study at home. gotta prepare for my tuition class on tuesday anyway. wiyh yuen sern. cant wait to torture him. MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!! XD

and to one person that i dont want to mention, please stop trying to dream of me!!! its so scary!!! lol. but i love you always! haha. i'm just being really random now.

anyway, to all spm students... GOOD LUCK STUDYING PPL!!!

thats all for now.

xoxo..

wealth, success or love?

2009-11-01T06:06:00.000-08:00

Subject: Love , Weath and Success, whom to be come in to your home first
>
> A woman came out of her house and saw 3 old men with long white beards
> sitting in her front yard. She did not recognize them. She said 'I don't
> think I know you, but you must be hungry. Please come in and have
> something to eat.'
>
>
> 'Is the man of the house home?', they asked.
>
>
> 'No', she replied. 'He's out.'
>
> 'Then we cannot come in', they replied.
>
> In the evening when her husband came home, she told him what had happened.
>
> 'Go tell them I am home and invite them in!'
>
> The woman went out and invited the men in'
>
> 'We do not go into a House together,' they replied.
>
>
> 'Why is that?' she asked.
>
>
> One of the old men explained: 'His name is Wealth,' he said pointing to
> one of his friends, and said pointing to another one, 'He is Success, and
> I am Love.' Then he added, 'Now go in and discuss with your husband which
> one of us you want in your home.'
>
>
> The woman went in and told her husband what was said. Her husband was
> overjoyed. 'How nice!!', he said. 'Since that is the case, let us invite
> Wealth. Let him come and fill our home with wealth!'
>
> His wife disagreed. 'My dear, why don't we invite Success?'
>
> Their daughter-in-law was listening from the other corner of the house.
> She jumped in with her own suggestion: 'Would it not be better to invite
> Love? Our home will then be filled with love!'
>
> 'Let us heed our daughter-in-law's advice,' said the husband to his wife.
>
> 'Go out and invite Love to be our guest.'
>
> The woman went out and asked the 3 old men, 'Which one of you is Love?
> Please come in and be our guest.'
>
> Love got up and started walking toward the house. The other 2 also got up
> and followed him. Surprised, the lady asked Wealth and Success: 'I only
> invited Love, Why are you coming in?'
>
> The old men replied together: 'If you had invited Wealth or Success, the
> other two of us would've stayed out, but since you invited Love, wherever
> He goes, we go with him. Wherever there is Love, Nothing is too much
> trouble and there will be also Wealth and Success!!!!!!'
>
> MY WISH FOR YOU...
> -Where there is pain, I wish you peace and mercy.
> -Where there is self-doubting, I wish you a renewed confidence in your
> ability to work through it.
> -Where there is tiredness, or exhaustion, I wish you understanding,
> patience, and renewed strength.
> -Where there is fear, I wish you love, and courage.

what would you do?

2009-11-01T06:00:00.000-08:00

What would you do if every time you fell in love with someone you had to say good-bye?
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What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

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What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness?

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What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?

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What would you do if you loved someone more than anything else and you could never have them?

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Some people live and some people die.

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But I want to tell you I love you and you are a true friend...

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That I will always be here for you when and if you need me...

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If I died tomorrow, you would be in my heart forever.
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Would I be in yours?

profound statements!

2009-11-01T05:29:00.001-08:00

profound statements!

2009-11-01T05:29:00.000-08:00

57cents church

2009-10-31T04:52:00.000-07:00

Hi............would you believe 57 cents can make a huge difference if you
> add love, compassion and devotion to it. Pls read on..........
>
>
> > A little girl stood
> > near a small church from which she had been turned away because it was
> > "too crowded."
>
> > "I can't go to Sunday School," she sobbed to the pastor as he walked
> > by.
> >
> >
> > Seeing her shabby, unkempt appearance, the pastor guessed the reason
> > and, taking her by the hand, took her inside and found a place for her
> > in the Sunday school class. The child was so happy that they found
> > room for her, and she went to bed that night thinking of the children
> > who have no place to worship Jesus .
> >
> >
> >
> > Some two years later, this child lay dead in one of the poor tenement
> > buildings. Her parents called for the kindhearted pastor who had
> > befriended their daughter to handle the final arrangements..
> >
> >
> >
> > As her poor little body was being moved, a worn and
> > crumpled red purse was found which seemed to have been
> > rummaged from some trash
> > dump.
> >
> >
> >
> > Inside was found 57 cents and a note, scribbled in childish
> > handwriting, which read: "This is to help build the
> > little church bigger so more children can go to Sunday
> > School."
> >
> >
> >
> > For two years she had saved for this offering of
> > love.
> >
> >
> >
> > When the pastor tearfully read that note, he knew instantly
> > what he would do. Carrying this note and the cracked, red
> > pocketbook to the pulpit, he told the story of her unselfish
> > love and devotion.
> >
> >
> >
> > He challenged his deacons to get busy and raise enough
> > money for the larger
> > building.
> >
> >
> >
> > But the story does not end
> > there...
> >
> >
> >
> > A newspaper learned of the story and published It. It was
> > read by a wealthy realtor who offered them a parcel of land
> > worth many thousands.
> >
> >
> >
> > When told that the church could not pay so much, he offered
> > to sell it to the little church for 57
> > cents.
> >
> >
> > Church members made large donations. Checks came from far
> > and wide.
> >
> > Within five years the little girl's gift had increased
> > to $250,000.00--a huge sum for that time (near the turn of
> > the century). Her unselfish love had paid large
> > dividends.
> >
> >
> >
> > When you are in the city ofPhiladelphia ,
> > look up Temple Baptist
> > Church , with a seating
> > capacity of 3,300. And be sure to visit TempleUniversity,
> > where thousands of students are
> > educated.
> >
> >
> >
> > Have a look, too, at the GoodSamaritan
> > Hospital and at a Sunday
> > School building which houses hun dreds of beautiful
> > children, built so that no child in the area will ever need
> > to be left outside during Sunday school
> > time.
> >
> >
> >
> > In one of the rooms of this building may be seen the
> > picture of the sweet face of the little girl whose 57 cents,
> > so sacrificially saved, made such remarkable history.
> > Alongside of it is a portrait of her kind pastor, Dr.
> > Russell H. Conwell , author of the book, "Acres of
> > Diamonds".
> >
> >
> >
> > This is a true story, which goes to show WHAT GOD CAN DO
> > WITH 57 CENTS.
> >
>
> > This is a powerful novena.

graduation nite...

2009-10-31T04:18:00.000-07:00

hey ppl. sorry i havent been online lately. so i've returned to talk about my graduation night. it was last friday on the 23rd. and because it was a formal event, i had to wear a... DRESS! omg!!! and i was in front of the two lines and had to walk in first. scary experience. especially since i was wearing heels. i am very dangerously unstable in my heels. haha. so any way, we had lots of food that didnt taste so bad. and we had to go up on stage to get our scrolls and our souvenirs. i got a winnie the pooh graduate! so adorable man. haha.. and there were performances too. and in between our courses of great many dishes, we managed to go around and camwhore wit every living friends there. all in all, i enjoyed myself, despite being in a dress and heels. here are a few pics of me in a dress for your benefit. enjoy it since the next time you'll see me in a dress is during my wedding, which is a long way more. XD maybe, just maybe, if you're lucky, i'll wear a dress for x'mas. lol. but dont hold your breath. hehe!!!!

thats all for now. chioaz!!!

weekends and raya!!!

2009-09-20T04:09:00.000-07:00

ok.. friday and saturday was an extremely dull and boring day. thank goodness i had a very very very extremely good friend who was willing to waste his credit to call me and entertain me. my very own entertainer!!! so thanks lots to yuen sern! saturday was slightly better. it was dull in the morning. i was watching cartoons like a five year old kid! lol!! in the afternoon i went to bible class and there was only 10 of us there! kinda wasting my time actually but if i didnt go, my best friend lyn would have tortured me wen she saw me.. in the night, i saw a mlay movie titled salam terakhir, starring rosyam nor. it was a sad movie but i didnt cry because i couldnt. but my mum and sister was crying by the buckets like you wouldnt believe!!! i was laughing the whole time at the ending because of this! it was HILARIOUS!! and again i talked to yuen sern till it was really late. until he couldnt wake up today to go jogging when he wanted to. haha! always full of excuses and he blamed me too! so unfair! then today i went to cjurch in the morning, came back and slept like a baby. when i woke up i went to my uncle's house for raya! man.. the food was DELICIOUS!!!! haha. especially the rendang! YUM!!!!!! overall, i think my weekend was pretty boring. but at the same time, i had some fun. i guess as the saying goes, good stuff comes in small packages. so to all my muslim friends and their family, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI. MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN!!! =P

exams!

2009-09-05T05:42:00.000-07:00

omg!! exams are starting on tuesday. its going to be a long three weeks. its going to be one of the longest and most torturing time of my life. aargh!!!! and to think that now only i am settling down to study. i tried studying yesterday, it was history. i nearly want to sleep ady. if this goes on, i am going to die for spm man! haiz..

SWIMMING

2009-08-28T01:43:00.000-07:00

swimming is so cool man. haha. i still remember last year. i had pool parties after pool parties after pool parties. haha. it was the awesome, fantastic, fun, etc, etc, etc... haha

here are some pics of me with my church friends in the pool.

this is a pic of us all together. as you can see, there are more guys at the party compared to girls. it was a bit of a havoc. the guys were throwing and dunking us girls in the pool. i think i choked and swallowed a lot of chlorine water.

now this was all of us after the party. we were quite reluctant to go home because we had a lot of fun together.

i miss those days now. i cant wait for spm to be over so that i can organise a pool party that will bring us all together again and have fun!

weird life..

2009-08-27T03:55:00.000-07:00

what a weird life i have. its really funny actually.
i listen to others and offer them advice but i never seem to take it at all.
truth be told, i really actually don't know how to follow my own advice.
no wonder my life is pretty screwed up huh?
i mean, take a closer look at me and you might be stunned to find out about certain stuff that i never tell people.
i dont feel secure enough to go and spill all my problems to others.
its not that i dont trust them, dont get me wrong.
i am just not an open person.
lately though, i have found someone that i have come to be able to talk to.
i like that person lots too.
i feel so much better after talking to that person.
but somehow, i managed to screw things up between us.
the problem is quite complicated.
i really hope that the tension between us will dissolve some how.

PRAY FOR ME PEOPLE BECAUSE I NEED IT!

my wishes!

2009-08-26T00:16:00.000-07:00

here is a list of my top 10 wishes:

1. my friends to have a surprise birthday part for me(i cant remember when was my last party actually!)
2. to be able to meet tom felton a.k.a. draco malfoy in real life
3. to be able to sing with all my fav singers! (to many to name)
4. to go for the world youth day on madrid, spain in 2011
5. to be able to drive before i am 19! (hint to my parents :P)
6. to go to a gay club with my friends just to see whats it like (omg)
7. to travel the world especially rome, hawaii, paris...
8. to build a perfect career for myself (becoming the best criminal profiler)
9. to be constantly surrounded by my friends and family whom i love

AND THE 10TH WISH IS OF COURSE TO BE ABLE TO SETTLE DOWN WITH THE BEST GUY WHO WILL ALWAYS LOVE ME!!!!!!