Sunday, July 25, 2010

hard life

do you feel like everything in this world is against you? like you;re constantly alone?
like you have no one when you need someone?
and then when you do something everyweek and yet the 1 week you want to take off you just get scolding from certain people??

i have. sometimes, i feel so unappreciated. a lot of people come to me only when they need something from me. other than that they just ignore me like i am not there or like i'm invincible!

wat the F***!!!!!

is this how i am suppossed to be treated? they just dont care what i feel. its all about them. what they want, or what they say and wat they feel. its all about them.

especially my family.
i just want to give up.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

crazy lil thing called love

many people wonder what is love. including me.

i always imagined it to be like what the books describe. you know?? when you kiss a person and you'll hear bells? when you have found the person you love, it will take your breath away?? that sort of things that only will come true in fariytales.

imagine my horror when i finally wake up from this dream to find that it hardly ever happens that way! does this mean that i will never be able to find that boy who will swoop into my life like a knight in shining armour and steal my heart away?

sigh.. i dated 3 boys. and i loved them all. but they were not meant for me. they cared for me and some day i hope that they will find the perfect girl that deserves them. to those 3 boys, forgive me if i have hurt you. but know that i will always be there for you...

...

so now comes the question.. who is this boy that was meant for me?is he even out there? or will i end up as a spinster with 77 cats?

i am happy to say that i found 1 boy who fits this dream boy of mine. he is everything i wished for and more. he loves me and takes care of me. he is cute, nice and sweet. what more could i possibly ask for?

of course, i still dream of certain things that he would do with me. for instance i wish that he could come over my house and spend time with me. i want to cuddle with him as we sit together watching a movie.

i want him to whisper in my ears that he loves me and that he belongs only with me at his side as he hugs me tightly. i wish that when he wins something he will win it for me. and after that he will take me in his arms as he kisses me. isnt this the kind of things that every girl dreams of?

i want to walk down a beach, holding his hands, as we talk about everything that we like. i dream of a moonlight dinner at a place so romantic.. and that he will sing a perfectly romantic song and dedicate it to me.

i wish that i could lie in bed with him next to me, hugging me, look me in the eye and whisper how much i meant to him and how much he loves me...

i know some of the things that i hope and dream of is a bit too extreme.. but if only it can be done then i would be the happiest person in this planet.

i want our love for each other to always be strong and last forever. for all the hurts and pains that he has caused me, i will always forgive him and smile for him so that he will always be happy.

for all the hurt that i have caused him, well, i am sincerely very sorry, my love.. i never meant to hurt yoou and if i could i would take it all back. i just want to hold you in my arms right now and be there for you always.

there is truly nothing in this world that i could want more than you. NOTHING. to have you by my side all the time is truly the best moments in my life. to be this in love with you.. its the best give that GOD could have ever given me.

thats just the beauty of love. it brings joy and sadness, happiness and tears. it creates problems and gives us the sweetest memories of each other. it is not perfect but it brings us closer to each other.  love is blind because it doesnt matter if you're not perfect. to make mistakes and to accept them. to always forgive one another.

truly, my dear, you have stolen my heart. there is nothing left of me that you do not own..

i love you forever and eternally..

Friday, July 23, 2010

treat ur woman ryte!

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It ' s not difficult to make a woman happy.

A man only needs to be:


1. a friend
2. a companion
3.. a lover
4. a brother
5. a father
6. a master
7. a chef
8. an electrician
9. a carpenter
10. a plumber
11. a mechanic
12. a decorator
13. a stylist
14. a sexologist
15. a gynecologist
16. a psychologist
17.. a pest exterminator
18. a psychiatrist
19. a healer
20. a good listener
21. an organizer
22. a good father
23. very clean
24. sympathetic
25. athletic
26. warm
27. attentive
28. gallant
29. intelligent
30. funny
31. creative
32. tender
33. strong
34... understanding
35. tolerant
36. prudent
37. ambitious
38... capable
39. courageous
40. determined
41. true
42. dependable
43. passionate
44. compassionate


WITHOUT FORGETTING TO:


45. give her compliments regularly
46. love shopping
47. be honest
48. be very rich
49.. not stress her out
50. not look at other girls

AND AT THE SAME TIME, YOU MUST ALSO:


51. give her lots of attention, but expect little yourself
52. give her lots of time, especially time for herself
53. give her lots of space, never worrying about where she goes

IT IS VERY IMPORTANT:


54. Never to forget:
* birthdays
* anniversaries
* arrangements she makes



HOW TO MAKE A MAN HAPPY


cid:AAF75CBB89484FD3835336F9B0138647@VALUED8A7282261. Don't bother him  

         2.  Give him Peanuts and beer

haha!

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Died on the table?
Thanks for your corporation!

for that special someone

i once felt that my life had no meaning, as there was so much conflict in it. i didnt care what happened to me because my life meant nothing to me. but that was all before i met him.

i still think that god wanted me to llove my life so He gave me that special someone.

the day he came into my life, it was like a tornado hitting at malysia. i felt like everything in my life became worse. how could i not?

here i was, falling for a very cute and perfect boy all over again. and i thought to myself, there was no way that he would want me. no way  that he would give me a chance.

yet, that didnt stop me from trying to get close to him. if i couldnt have.. well at least i could be there as his friend right??

the more i got to know him, the more i fell in love with him. i couldnt help it! i was lost in love..

when he said that he liked me, i was the happiest person in this world. but could it be true?

after a month of knowing him, he asked me... well, i'm sure u can guess what he asked.. after contemplatiing it for a week i agreed. it was like a dream come true..

in 10 days it would be our 2nd month. ya we have had more downs then ups. but i cant help loving him all the more.

to be this in love with him.. o never knew that this can exist in my so not perfect life. but wat can i say?

my heart is in his hands. i miss him when i dont see him and i cant help thinking about him all the time.

to that special someone, you know who you are. i just want to say that i love you so much and that i belong to you, heart and soul, now and forever!

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

clueless..

i sit in classs thinking about that special someone. i feel lost without him and my life is meaningless when he's not by my side.

how am i to live my life if one day he decides to leave me? this is my biggest fear. that he will one day leave me for another girl. am i being paranoid?

i have no faith in myself at all. no confidence. i often wonder what he sees in me now?? will that special thing about me that attracts him to me someday fade? will he get bored of it one day??

i just pray that it will never happen. i cannot live my life if he leaves me. i pray that he will forever remain mith me just as how he always will remain in my heart..